-Daggers -Shuriken -Throwing Daggers -Broadsword
-Katana -Spear -Rapier -Dual Sword
-Mace -Chakras -Nunchaku (maybe wrong spelling)
-Rod -Staff -Pike -Tonfa
-Gauntlet -Bow -Crossbow -Claws
-Picks -Saber -Pole Axe -Axe
-Boomerang -Shield -Iron arm
Well that’s all I can think of. Anyway…which one would you prefer to use if you are in a battle between melee weapons? You are allowed to choose 3 of them maximum. For me, I’ll choose Katana, daggers and shurikens. I will wield the Katana and keep the daggers behind my back where if I’ll use it if I lost my Katana and I will use the shurikens for range attack.
It’s my ideal weapon and I like daggers the best. I like ninjas and ninjas uses those except Katana. And mind you, real original Katana is the best melee weapon since back then. They use the technique push-pull where your upper hand on the ‘holder’ of katana push and the one below pull. This technique is slice and dice where one slash one kill. If you are an expert on using katana and martial arts, you will nearly be invincible because katana is super sharp. It can cut strands of hair just by moving the blade towards the hairs without using big force.
Boomerang, one of my favorite weapon. If you have the accuracy, you can use it for a fake attack or something like that. Throw it to your opponent and fake it by missing the attack and wait it to fly back and hit your opponent from behind. Chakras are good but it’s better than boomerang if you know how to control it and it’s dangerous too if you don’t have a good coordinate skill and accuracy. It can fly in various directions and if you ever watch the movie/series Xena, it’s something like that but Xena’s chakra is a bit over.
-Strength -Intelligence -Accuracy
-Agility - Wisdom -Dexterity
Well, here’s extra information about what those words mean in the dictionary.
Strength- physical energy that someone has to lift or move things.
Intelligence- ability to understand and think about things, and to gain and use knowledge.
Accuracy- the ability to do something accurately
Wisdom- ability to make good decision based on experience and knowledge.
Agility- able to move quickly or easily
Dexterity- great skill in using your hand or mind.
If strength obsoletes with agility, accuracy obsoletes dexterity, and intelligence obsoletes wisdom, which one would you choose? You can only choose 3 out of those 6.
If me, I would choose agility, intelligence and dexterity. It makes a good combination with my ideal weapon. Katana and daggers is light and therefore, I don’t need a good strength to swing it while I need dexterity to use my shuriken. Accuracy is good but I need to have a good coordinate skill if not I might miss the target. This is just my opinion anyway. Well happy choosing :)
27 th October 2006.
0037 Hrs.
P.S. This will be my last post till I finish my exam.
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Friday, October 27, 2006
Love.
Kiss is one of the most powerful things in this world. Why? Kiss can lead to success and victory, death and failure, marriage and divorce, and nearly everything in this world. One kiss can also give someone money in some way of course. Kiss, there are many different types for it. From family to relatives and friends to lovers. I always kiss my little cousin and I don’t know why. We just have the urge to kiss someone and we choose who to kiss. Of course I won’t go and kiss someone I don’t know, will you?
And from kiss, it will lead you to tongue fighting and smooching. Well of course I’ve been there done that. If you ever get to have a chance for tongue fighting, go for it! You will feel the feeling of satisfactory and you will ask for more but everything has a limit and I hope that you can control yourself of course and don’t lead to any pregnancy or AIDS. XD. There’s some kind of chemistry that releases to your whole body and you yourself will feel it. As if it replenishes your energy or something.
Scientists can’t even find out the reason why we kiss and what leads to kissing. The passion of kiss itself is so strong that it can lead to killing. That’s where they name it as ‘The Kiss of Death.’ If you kiss wrong person, it will lead you to diseases or assassination. I kid you not but there’ve been cases where the temptation of women/kiss leads to assassination.
Love, I’ve longed for one person’s love and that’s the reason why I stay single but not available. I met two people today that make me write this. One is that person’s love towards me is so strong that nothing can stop that person from going away. Love kills too. As you all know that there’s many news about people dying for love and stuffs. Sometimes is the problem of heart breaks, cheated or family problems. There may be other too but that’s all I know about the reason why one die in the name of love. It seems so strange to me that what we want we won’t or hard to get it while what we don’t want and it’s easy to get it. Is really late now and I still have to continue my revision tomorrow so I guess that’s all.
25 th October 2006.
0338 Hrs.
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And from kiss, it will lead you to tongue fighting and smooching. Well of course I’ve been there done that. If you ever get to have a chance for tongue fighting, go for it! You will feel the feeling of satisfactory and you will ask for more but everything has a limit and I hope that you can control yourself of course and don’t lead to any pregnancy or AIDS. XD. There’s some kind of chemistry that releases to your whole body and you yourself will feel it. As if it replenishes your energy or something.
Scientists can’t even find out the reason why we kiss and what leads to kissing. The passion of kiss itself is so strong that it can lead to killing. That’s where they name it as ‘The Kiss of Death.’ If you kiss wrong person, it will lead you to diseases or assassination. I kid you not but there’ve been cases where the temptation of women/kiss leads to assassination.
Love, I’ve longed for one person’s love and that’s the reason why I stay single but not available. I met two people today that make me write this. One is that person’s love towards me is so strong that nothing can stop that person from going away. Love kills too. As you all know that there’s many news about people dying for love and stuffs. Sometimes is the problem of heart breaks, cheated or family problems. There may be other too but that’s all I know about the reason why one die in the name of love. It seems so strange to me that what we want we won’t or hard to get it while what we don’t want and it’s easy to get it. Is really late now and I still have to continue my revision tomorrow so I guess that’s all.
25 th October 2006.
0338 Hrs.
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Premonition.
Well maybe you yourself had too also experienced déjà-vu right? In case you don’t know, then I will explain in 2 ways.
Dictionary ==> the feeling that you are having exactly the same experience as one you had before.
Mine/ Personal experience ==> dream that you did that stuff before but when you woke up, you won’t realize you had that dream until it happened. E.g. you dreamt that you fell on the stairs but the next morning when you woke up, you totally forget about it. Then 3 days later, it occurs and it reminded you that you’ve been there done that.
The déjà-vu can take place without hours, minutes, days, weeks and even years. The longest déjà-vu I ever had is 2 years. I had a déjà-vu that I am at Ivan’s (a school friend of mine) house doing scout stuffs and that year was when I was still standard 5 or rather 11 years old. I forget about it until it occurs.
I am okay with déjà-vu nowadays and it doesn’t harm me but premonition does. I read this book that incident really occurs with simple premonition that many people does not notice or even care about it. But as the date I assume it is getting closer, more and more premonition I saw but it’s so mysterious to me. The numbers 169, 1111, 111, 444 kept appearing to me. Mind you, I did not get this from the movie/series ‘Lost’. Is just my theory and I hope I am wrong about it. Anyway, this is my assumption. On 11 th of November (1111), at 0111 or 1311 hours (111), a death or something dangerous (444) will occur and I assume that 169 is one night stand as the number 69 means sex.
As the day approaching, I saw even more number. This number really terrifies me. 666. The devil’s number. At first, I thought is nothing and it’s just my own stupid thoughts but heck no. Clocks, place, phone numbers and even in my game I see these numbers. Unknown callers also phone my number and places I went I saw this numbers. There’s this air hostess that has this premonition where she always see the number 911 on the clock. She take it as nothing and during that day, she was saved by her boss or something because she was suppose to be on the plane that crashed but her boss switched her post with someone else.
That’s where I got these from and I surfed some site about this stuffs and it says that the numbers that appear on one suddenly and flashed non-stop may sometimes be a guide to something good or bad. I know maybe you all will think that all of these are just some kind of craps but I don’t mind cause me myself don’t really believe in it and I just hope that what I saw is just some coincidence or something. I can’t deny it because I see and experienced quite many supernatural stuffs and maybe it is just another of the so-called gift from the so-called gods. That’s what my mom always tells me. Damn, this topic and the serenity of the environment are giving me creep.
23 th October 2006.
0254 Hrs.
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Dictionary ==> the feeling that you are having exactly the same experience as one you had before.
Mine/ Personal experience ==> dream that you did that stuff before but when you woke up, you won’t realize you had that dream until it happened. E.g. you dreamt that you fell on the stairs but the next morning when you woke up, you totally forget about it. Then 3 days later, it occurs and it reminded you that you’ve been there done that.
The déjà-vu can take place without hours, minutes, days, weeks and even years. The longest déjà-vu I ever had is 2 years. I had a déjà-vu that I am at Ivan’s (a school friend of mine) house doing scout stuffs and that year was when I was still standard 5 or rather 11 years old. I forget about it until it occurs.
I am okay with déjà-vu nowadays and it doesn’t harm me but premonition does. I read this book that incident really occurs with simple premonition that many people does not notice or even care about it. But as the date I assume it is getting closer, more and more premonition I saw but it’s so mysterious to me. The numbers 169, 1111, 111, 444 kept appearing to me. Mind you, I did not get this from the movie/series ‘Lost’. Is just my theory and I hope I am wrong about it. Anyway, this is my assumption. On 11 th of November (1111), at 0111 or 1311 hours (111), a death or something dangerous (444) will occur and I assume that 169 is one night stand as the number 69 means sex.
As the day approaching, I saw even more number. This number really terrifies me. 666. The devil’s number. At first, I thought is nothing and it’s just my own stupid thoughts but heck no. Clocks, place, phone numbers and even in my game I see these numbers. Unknown callers also phone my number and places I went I saw this numbers. There’s this air hostess that has this premonition where she always see the number 911 on the clock. She take it as nothing and during that day, she was saved by her boss or something because she was suppose to be on the plane that crashed but her boss switched her post with someone else.
That’s where I got these from and I surfed some site about this stuffs and it says that the numbers that appear on one suddenly and flashed non-stop may sometimes be a guide to something good or bad. I know maybe you all will think that all of these are just some kind of craps but I don’t mind cause me myself don’t really believe in it and I just hope that what I saw is just some coincidence or something. I can’t deny it because I see and experienced quite many supernatural stuffs and maybe it is just another of the so-called gift from the so-called gods. That’s what my mom always tells me. Damn, this topic and the serenity of the environment are giving me creep.
23 th October 2006.
0254 Hrs.
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Prediction.
Well I like to play tarot cards although many people say that playing tarot card is not good especially if you read True Singapore Ghost Stories, they will tell you that tarot card and Ouija board is bad but I still do so. But trust me, you will never like to play Ouija board. If you ever tried to communicate with the ghosts before, trust me, you will never want to play that game. It actually depends on your luck too and the location you’re playing it. Why? If you conjured an evil spirit then is bye bye. If it’s otherwise then is good for you. But I don’t encourage it of course.
Here’s what I did. I was ‘asking’ about something that I wished and see if the result is good and WO… it turns out to be a good prediction. Well of course I don’t take these things seriously because I am wondering how come a normal pack of cards can make some predictions. Anyway, I am glad with the outcome because my predictions on that particular problem were always upside down or rather bad ones. But for the first time ever, it changed! Well maybe is just a coincidence I thought and decided to put that prediction one side. The next day, it came true! I was so glad but again I think that it might be temporary.
On that night, I played again and positive results appear again but with a BIG obstacle on the course. Again I just put those prediction aside. Then, things are getting better just like what I read on the tarot cards. I am quite a stubborn person therefore, I decided to try again and same results turn out and well, it really got sooooo good that I can’t stop thinking about it. There’s this card called ‘The Fool’ with the meaning ‘expect the unexpected so and so…’ Again the next day, good result and well 3 times is more than enough so, I decided to take these predictions for real.
I played with it long time ago and 8/10 times it comes true but since this matter is serious so I decided to make some moves and assure about it.
‘Expect the Unexpected’. The Fool.
20 October 2006.
2247 Hrs.
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Here’s what I did. I was ‘asking’ about something that I wished and see if the result is good and WO… it turns out to be a good prediction. Well of course I don’t take these things seriously because I am wondering how come a normal pack of cards can make some predictions. Anyway, I am glad with the outcome because my predictions on that particular problem were always upside down or rather bad ones. But for the first time ever, it changed! Well maybe is just a coincidence I thought and decided to put that prediction one side. The next day, it came true! I was so glad but again I think that it might be temporary.
On that night, I played again and positive results appear again but with a BIG obstacle on the course. Again I just put those prediction aside. Then, things are getting better just like what I read on the tarot cards. I am quite a stubborn person therefore, I decided to try again and same results turn out and well, it really got sooooo good that I can’t stop thinking about it. There’s this card called ‘The Fool’ with the meaning ‘expect the unexpected so and so…’ Again the next day, good result and well 3 times is more than enough so, I decided to take these predictions for real.
I played with it long time ago and 8/10 times it comes true but since this matter is serious so I decided to make some moves and assure about it.
‘Expect the Unexpected’. The Fool.
20 October 2006.
2247 Hrs.
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Exodus.
Yesterday slept very late bout 4am++. Went to Batu Ferringhi again to buy illegal DVDs, CDs etc. Then chat with friends till late at night. Today same thing again. Woke up at noon, eat, bath then go to my cousin, Jinn Fure’s house. Same age and well, we are quite close. Went to his house to do stuffs then play RYLU. Risk You Life Underground. A private server for a online game named RYL of course.
Play play play then father came ask me if I wanna go back or stay there. Decided to stay then play play play. Mom’s here. Bring Darren back to his house which is actually just next to my cousin’s house. Then ate one of my favorite food, Wan Tan Noodle or how you pronounce it lol. Then play play play till midnight, sis ask me if I wanna go beach together with them. Agreed. Then whoosh…to the BEACH!!!
Stop! Eh??? Why stop at Gurney Plaza huh? Isn’t it midnight already? Then sis told me she’s suppose to fetch another cousin of mine whom I don’t really like and he’s suppose to join us to the beach. Fine… Then ring ring…informed that it’s there’s 2 extra passenger going on board with us. What the heck??? It makes a total of 7 teens in the car!!! Sweat…me, both of my sis, Mei Yin, Wei Lin (my cousin) and his gang or 2 of his friend to be exact. Well, on the way, 2 of us have to sit on other’s lap and sweat…. Me and my younger sis scolded my elder sis for being so KPC.
Okay fine, they are here. Is singing time! :) Sibling singing together to be exact. We sing together from time to time. Then to 7-11 bought extra large slurpee or how it spells and some tidbits. To the beach. Parked and wow…my elder sis and me is so daring lols. Why? The place we park suppose to be free of charge but there’s some people collecting the parking fee illegally and of course we don’t wanna pay. So we had a small argument and whoosh…don’t care bout them but of course Muslims. What’d you expect? So we kinda scare if they would call their gang to beat us up. So, before we go back, we make some preparations. We took some stones, sharp stones and just in case they ever attack us, at least we have weapons right? Something is better than nothing.
And as if it’s miracle, someone I don’t expect messaged me. Well, I think our friendship is over but all of sudden this guy just pop up and message me. Apologized. Accept then chat till I’m home. Then tried to message him the day after and the day after tomorrow. No reply. Then found out that he’s just using me that day because it’s very late at night he got no one to talk to except me. Okay fine. Our friendship is totally over and I would never ever message him unless I get a appropriate reason or apology. Complicated story, don’t wanna mention bout it.
But as usual, my cousin wanna be hero, then let him be. Ignore. Oh yeah…he’s not handsome at all but guess what? He will criticize other girls if they are ugly or ‘flat’. Sigh…some people just don’t look at the mirror. Well, I feel that im so lucky. Why? I go everywhere with a bunch of key and was tied um…nearly quite long bout 5cm maybe? So whenever someone attack me, I can at least use those heavy metals to swing at them. Other than that, I usually go out with a belt, just for the sake of fashion lol. Here we go…walk out to our car park.
As expected, they will do something and here it is. They follow us but well, we park our car near the roadside so, they can’t go there because they are scare of police of course. It’s nearly 3am by that time. Into the car and wow…so excited. It’s been a looooooong time since my elder sis drive super fast and wow today she’s fast. Nice…go back, ate a bit. Sleep.
16 October 2006.
1629 Hrs.
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Play play play then father came ask me if I wanna go back or stay there. Decided to stay then play play play. Mom’s here. Bring Darren back to his house which is actually just next to my cousin’s house. Then ate one of my favorite food, Wan Tan Noodle or how you pronounce it lol. Then play play play till midnight, sis ask me if I wanna go beach together with them. Agreed. Then whoosh…to the BEACH!!!
Stop! Eh??? Why stop at Gurney Plaza huh? Isn’t it midnight already? Then sis told me she’s suppose to fetch another cousin of mine whom I don’t really like and he’s suppose to join us to the beach. Fine… Then ring ring…informed that it’s there’s 2 extra passenger going on board with us. What the heck??? It makes a total of 7 teens in the car!!! Sweat…me, both of my sis, Mei Yin, Wei Lin (my cousin) and his gang or 2 of his friend to be exact. Well, on the way, 2 of us have to sit on other’s lap and sweat…. Me and my younger sis scolded my elder sis for being so KPC.
Okay fine, they are here. Is singing time! :) Sibling singing together to be exact. We sing together from time to time. Then to 7-11 bought extra large slurpee or how it spells and some tidbits. To the beach. Parked and wow…my elder sis and me is so daring lols. Why? The place we park suppose to be free of charge but there’s some people collecting the parking fee illegally and of course we don’t wanna pay. So we had a small argument and whoosh…don’t care bout them but of course Muslims. What’d you expect? So we kinda scare if they would call their gang to beat us up. So, before we go back, we make some preparations. We took some stones, sharp stones and just in case they ever attack us, at least we have weapons right? Something is better than nothing.
And as if it’s miracle, someone I don’t expect messaged me. Well, I think our friendship is over but all of sudden this guy just pop up and message me. Apologized. Accept then chat till I’m home. Then tried to message him the day after and the day after tomorrow. No reply. Then found out that he’s just using me that day because it’s very late at night he got no one to talk to except me. Okay fine. Our friendship is totally over and I would never ever message him unless I get a appropriate reason or apology. Complicated story, don’t wanna mention bout it.
But as usual, my cousin wanna be hero, then let him be. Ignore. Oh yeah…he’s not handsome at all but guess what? He will criticize other girls if they are ugly or ‘flat’. Sigh…some people just don’t look at the mirror. Well, I feel that im so lucky. Why? I go everywhere with a bunch of key and was tied um…nearly quite long bout 5cm maybe? So whenever someone attack me, I can at least use those heavy metals to swing at them. Other than that, I usually go out with a belt, just for the sake of fashion lol. Here we go…walk out to our car park.
As expected, they will do something and here it is. They follow us but well, we park our car near the roadside so, they can’t go there because they are scare of police of course. It’s nearly 3am by that time. Into the car and wow…so excited. It’s been a looooooong time since my elder sis drive super fast and wow today she’s fast. Nice…go back, ate a bit. Sleep.
16 October 2006.
1629 Hrs.
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Do you deserve a second chance?
‘Everyone deserves a second chance or try.’
That’s what Erin told me. Erin, I know her online. Well through an online game named Knights Online. Well, it’s very rare to see a girl playing these types of games but she is the one and the only real life girl I ever met in all the online games I ever played. She lives in France somewhere far from Paris but I forgot where it is. At first I thought that she was just another guy who is playing in a girl’s character but well, she proved it to me by giving me her MSN and through webcam. She’s pretty too and is a year younger than me but she’s just not my cup of tea. We get along very well and eventually became good online friend.
She knows nearly everything about me and she is my ‘living diary’. Well some sort of course. I tell her everything but she knows nothing about my family or friends of course. We don’t use real name when we chat but she let me know what her real name is. It’s Founette. Is a weird name huh? But what can you expect from French? Of course she knows mine too and we address our friends and families’ name as something else. I use the surname Chaos while she uses Rameose or however you pronounced it as. We even name our friends names but of course every name has a meaning behind it. Well I know that some of you who really read my post notice that there’s a person whom I address as Kenshi right? Well, ‘it’ is one of the one whom I address to her as. It’s rather complicated.
Well after listening to her quote about my love life, I’ve been wondering if it’s rational that I step back and let someone else to be in my life as a part of the story line. I don’t really like to mention to everyone about my love life and I only choose the person whom I can trust and tell them. Well, in this typical country where I’ve been through my life for exactly 16 years, 301 days, 15 hours, 23 minutes and still running, I notice that you just can’t let anyone know about something as strictly as love. Why? There will be friends and some family members whom will be bugging and telling the whole ‘world’ that you have a soul mate.
So far, I think there are less than 10 people whom I trust and of course that include my own mother but not father. I’ve been betrayed many times and of course I too have betrayed my friends before but I only did that for the sake of revenge and for that, I would rather choose to trust someone rather than tell the whole world.
‘Hundred friends is too few, one enemy is too much.’
That’s what I learnt. I really appreciate what Nixon and Marcus did although I just know Marcus this year. Nixon is different. Although he is quite a um…I’ll use the word naughty kid/guy/person, he’s very good to me. He never tells anyone before my secrets so am I of course. You don’t get on my nerve; I too won’t get on your nerve. And the person for example whom gets on my nerve is D-Phobia. He’s just toooooooooooooooooooooooooo much.
In my opinion, I think that everyone deserve a second chance so, I will just be patient and wait for the time to show me if it’s worth it. Do you deserve a second chance?
14 October 2006.
1537 Hrs.
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That’s what Erin told me. Erin, I know her online. Well through an online game named Knights Online. Well, it’s very rare to see a girl playing these types of games but she is the one and the only real life girl I ever met in all the online games I ever played. She lives in France somewhere far from Paris but I forgot where it is. At first I thought that she was just another guy who is playing in a girl’s character but well, she proved it to me by giving me her MSN and through webcam. She’s pretty too and is a year younger than me but she’s just not my cup of tea. We get along very well and eventually became good online friend.
She knows nearly everything about me and she is my ‘living diary’. Well some sort of course. I tell her everything but she knows nothing about my family or friends of course. We don’t use real name when we chat but she let me know what her real name is. It’s Founette. Is a weird name huh? But what can you expect from French? Of course she knows mine too and we address our friends and families’ name as something else. I use the surname Chaos while she uses Rameose or however you pronounced it as. We even name our friends names but of course every name has a meaning behind it. Well I know that some of you who really read my post notice that there’s a person whom I address as Kenshi right? Well, ‘it’ is one of the one whom I address to her as. It’s rather complicated.
Well after listening to her quote about my love life, I’ve been wondering if it’s rational that I step back and let someone else to be in my life as a part of the story line. I don’t really like to mention to everyone about my love life and I only choose the person whom I can trust and tell them. Well, in this typical country where I’ve been through my life for exactly 16 years, 301 days, 15 hours, 23 minutes and still running, I notice that you just can’t let anyone know about something as strictly as love. Why? There will be friends and some family members whom will be bugging and telling the whole ‘world’ that you have a soul mate.
So far, I think there are less than 10 people whom I trust and of course that include my own mother but not father. I’ve been betrayed many times and of course I too have betrayed my friends before but I only did that for the sake of revenge and for that, I would rather choose to trust someone rather than tell the whole world.
‘Hundred friends is too few, one enemy is too much.’
That’s what I learnt. I really appreciate what Nixon and Marcus did although I just know Marcus this year. Nixon is different. Although he is quite a um…I’ll use the word naughty kid/guy/person, he’s very good to me. He never tells anyone before my secrets so am I of course. You don’t get on my nerve; I too won’t get on your nerve. And the person for example whom gets on my nerve is D-Phobia. He’s just toooooooooooooooooooooooooo much.
In my opinion, I think that everyone deserve a second chance so, I will just be patient and wait for the time to show me if it’s worth it. Do you deserve a second chance?
14 October 2006.
1537 Hrs.
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Saturday, October 14, 2006
Girls.
Well, what I received from the net about women and men were so true. When a guy go shopping, he only buy what he wants and only go to that particular shop while the girls will go everywhere before going to the real destination. Is soooooo damn true. I followed both of my sis and her friends to go Gurney for shopping since I wanna buy some socks and they are not willing to help me do the shopping. Fine then. Here we go. Fetched her friends and then first destination. Bukit Jambul, where the worst shopping mall in Penang Island and the worst of the worst shopping mall I ever go in my life. The things there are all illegal or fake.
My sis go there to buy a fake Nike and ended up with dissatisfaction. Good for her. Why? Me and my second sister advised her not to buy fake things but she refuse to listen. Then fine with me…have it her way. Besides, she already has one Adidas and a Nike which is real but she wants more. Sweat…fine… She ended up with sour face and my heart was telling me that she deserve it for buying fake stuff. Other than that illegal and fake stuffs, there are plenty of Malays and sweat, they thought they are the coolest, most handsome and the one and only male in this whole wide world. Tchhea… Think about that. They wear hip-hop clothing with their bling blings. And, I’m wondering if they are born to wear something on their head. Yeap… caps.
They look so ugly yet they wear just like the wannabes. I know even other races do so and they are equally the same but, wow…even go out with parents have to wear like that. Duh…you’re not loitering. I can say that 80% of the Malays there wore like that. Uh…FYI, many people doesn’t think that it’s cool to be cool. You have to train cool to be cool duh… You have the style but you must also have the knowledge. Meaning, if you wanna be hip-hop, then learn some hip-hop before wearing hip-hop. Don’t be a wannabe. Is bad… really bad…sometimes, you will even end up being bashed like what my cousin had gone through but he too deserve it. Wear until his stupid cap by the side with baggy pant/denim and the chain thingie that drops down till his back. The worst, walk like he’s very cool or superb.
Then off to the ‘final destination’, Gurney Plaza. During the trip, I was learning how to tie shoe lace from her friend and wow…is so cool. That lace is called as Lattice Lace the design is zigzag style. If you are curious about it, then go www.fieggen.com. There are plenty of designs and it really looks cool. Okay, arrived and I have to carry extra weight. My sis’s friend’s laptop. Damn. I have to be their slave and they tell me ‘it will make you look like a man if you carry’. Duh…I am a soon to be man no matter if I carry it or not. I told them that I don’t wanna carry but they insisted on it and sigh…is all mine. Seperated into 2 groups. 1 is with my sis to catch some movie tix and another is follow my other sis and meet another of her friend. I chose the second one because the first one is very fussy type of sister which is my eldest and the one who buy fake stuff. Hahaz… If she ever see my blog, I am in a deep deep sh*t. Carry that heavy stuff and walk walk walk…Ah… there she is… Lim Wei…long time no see her. She’s my sis’s friend too.
Walk walk walk. Asked my sis and brought me to Adidas shop to buy the socks. Bought with a quite reasonable price which is RM14. Carry carry carry. My sis then go to every shoe shop available in Gurney just to buy one shoe that suits her night gown for my Aunt’s wedding. Me and Lim Wei insisted that she buy the one on the Parkson but I don’t know why she just doesn’t like it. Fine, followed her buy some lingerie and FYI I don’t mind if someone gossip about me on following girls to lingerie shop. Is normal for me and duh…I don’t care if you criticize or whatsoever. Bought 4 panties and sweat, I have to carry those too. Fine fine fine. Not long after, extra weight fall down on me again. She complained that her sneakers were making her leg ache and therefore, go to another shop and bought a stupid but nice slippers.
Put those sneakers the plastic and I have to carry it again. Met up with my elder sister and sigh… after become an errand boy, now model. Went to the shop beside Padini shop. She asked me to try those um…sweater like t-shirts and stuffs. The one you saw on Harry Potter style. I know that Ron wear those but im not sure if Harry wear those. Tried 4 of those and non of them suits me. Glad. I don’t wanna wear those but one of the clerk type long sleeves t-shirt is quite nice and I like it but, im too thin T_T cant fit.
Then, walk walk walk. Bought another shoe and have to carry those again. Another friend of my second sis is here and glad. Is all over. She is going with them to her husband-to-be’s house while my elder sis fetch me back. No more weight. Glad ^.^ Showed the socks to her and she nag like hell as I guessed. Complaining about real and fake stuffs again and sweat…RM10 can buy 3 fake Adidas socks from Batu Ferringhi. Ignore… then go to a coffee shop and ate. Changed location from Faces to Northam Café then to a stupid Lai Lai Coffee Shop located somewhere near my school. Went there because of stupid lor bak. Haihz…nevermind at least I saw FOOOD!!! Wanna have a pee so went to the toilet available there and sigh, dirty and the worst. The place for urinating is facing straight to the door. Being selfish and don’t wanna be embarrassed, I closed the door and occupied it myself.
11 October 2006
1711 Hrs.
-End-
My sis go there to buy a fake Nike and ended up with dissatisfaction. Good for her. Why? Me and my second sister advised her not to buy fake things but she refuse to listen. Then fine with me…have it her way. Besides, she already has one Adidas and a Nike which is real but she wants more. Sweat…fine… She ended up with sour face and my heart was telling me that she deserve it for buying fake stuff. Other than that illegal and fake stuffs, there are plenty of Malays and sweat, they thought they are the coolest, most handsome and the one and only male in this whole wide world. Tchhea… Think about that. They wear hip-hop clothing with their bling blings. And, I’m wondering if they are born to wear something on their head. Yeap… caps.
They look so ugly yet they wear just like the wannabes. I know even other races do so and they are equally the same but, wow…even go out with parents have to wear like that. Duh…you’re not loitering. I can say that 80% of the Malays there wore like that. Uh…FYI, many people doesn’t think that it’s cool to be cool. You have to train cool to be cool duh… You have the style but you must also have the knowledge. Meaning, if you wanna be hip-hop, then learn some hip-hop before wearing hip-hop. Don’t be a wannabe. Is bad… really bad…sometimes, you will even end up being bashed like what my cousin had gone through but he too deserve it. Wear until his stupid cap by the side with baggy pant/denim and the chain thingie that drops down till his back. The worst, walk like he’s very cool or superb.
Then off to the ‘final destination’, Gurney Plaza. During the trip, I was learning how to tie shoe lace from her friend and wow…is so cool. That lace is called as Lattice Lace the design is zigzag style. If you are curious about it, then go www.fieggen.com. There are plenty of designs and it really looks cool. Okay, arrived and I have to carry extra weight. My sis’s friend’s laptop. Damn. I have to be their slave and they tell me ‘it will make you look like a man if you carry’. Duh…I am a soon to be man no matter if I carry it or not. I told them that I don’t wanna carry but they insisted on it and sigh…is all mine. Seperated into 2 groups. 1 is with my sis to catch some movie tix and another is follow my other sis and meet another of her friend. I chose the second one because the first one is very fussy type of sister which is my eldest and the one who buy fake stuff. Hahaz… If she ever see my blog, I am in a deep deep sh*t. Carry that heavy stuff and walk walk walk…Ah… there she is… Lim Wei…long time no see her. She’s my sis’s friend too.
Walk walk walk. Asked my sis and brought me to Adidas shop to buy the socks. Bought with a quite reasonable price which is RM14. Carry carry carry. My sis then go to every shoe shop available in Gurney just to buy one shoe that suits her night gown for my Aunt’s wedding. Me and Lim Wei insisted that she buy the one on the Parkson but I don’t know why she just doesn’t like it. Fine, followed her buy some lingerie and FYI I don’t mind if someone gossip about me on following girls to lingerie shop. Is normal for me and duh…I don’t care if you criticize or whatsoever. Bought 4 panties and sweat, I have to carry those too. Fine fine fine. Not long after, extra weight fall down on me again. She complained that her sneakers were making her leg ache and therefore, go to another shop and bought a stupid but nice slippers.
Put those sneakers the plastic and I have to carry it again. Met up with my elder sister and sigh… after become an errand boy, now model. Went to the shop beside Padini shop. She asked me to try those um…sweater like t-shirts and stuffs. The one you saw on Harry Potter style. I know that Ron wear those but im not sure if Harry wear those. Tried 4 of those and non of them suits me. Glad. I don’t wanna wear those but one of the clerk type long sleeves t-shirt is quite nice and I like it but, im too thin T_T cant fit.
Then, walk walk walk. Bought another shoe and have to carry those again. Another friend of my second sis is here and glad. Is all over. She is going with them to her husband-to-be’s house while my elder sis fetch me back. No more weight. Glad ^.^ Showed the socks to her and she nag like hell as I guessed. Complaining about real and fake stuffs again and sweat…RM10 can buy 3 fake Adidas socks from Batu Ferringhi. Ignore… then go to a coffee shop and ate. Changed location from Faces to Northam Café then to a stupid Lai Lai Coffee Shop located somewhere near my school. Went there because of stupid lor bak. Haihz…nevermind at least I saw FOOOD!!! Wanna have a pee so went to the toilet available there and sigh, dirty and the worst. The place for urinating is facing straight to the door. Being selfish and don’t wanna be embarrassed, I closed the door and occupied it myself.
11 October 2006
1711 Hrs.
-End-
Family.
So far, I’ve seen 2 types of family besides mine.
Family No.1-
Family of the friend of mine. Her parent does not understand her at all. They got two daughters. One of them is a bit handicap where her left eye is fake, which is her younger sister. She came from a quite rich family but unhappy family. The only person that is very dear to her is her grandfather who give her much much money to spend with no question ask. But as she predicted, after her grandpa’s death, her life won’t be that pleasant anymore. She used to came to our house very often and usually overnight here for many days.
My mom is fine with it since she is also a good girl and not the wild type. She doesn’t like to go home as you know. Okay now her parents. His father is a part time lecturer while her mother is um…not sure…all I know is a boss. Her mother is the worst mother I ever seen on Earth. Why? Accuse her daughter for being ‘broke back’ while she isn’t. I still remember what she quoted when she came to our house and complain about her ‘naughty’ daughter.
“If I have the time, I would like to work all day long rather than being at home.”
What the heck she mean? It means that she don’t want to take care of her children and work work work. All the time is money money money to her. All she can do is give her daughter money and buy what they want. Another one is when her sister bully her, her mom just ignore but when she bully her sister and one word ‘Mom’ from her sister will get her into deep trouble all right. Once, her sister bit(bite) her, and she complain to her mom, and guess what she said,
“Is none of my business. Take care of the problem yourself.”
Of course she don’t dare to bite her sister back or she will be in deep trouble. So she call my sis up and well… fetched her here. Now an example of what she did to her sister. Once they were arguing about TV where she wanna watch a movie while her sis wanna watch Disney Channel. Her sis just complain to her mom and she has to let her sis to watch the Disney Channel and get scolded badly too. Now what the heck does the quote, “Is none of my business” now eh? Now she came less often cause of a BIG argument took place in our house. And worst, her mom refuses to listen to others and like to blame others for what happened to her daughter(s). She blame my mother for letting her daughter stay at our house and ‘corrupting’ her and ‘converted’ her into ‘broke back’. What the heck? She can blame anyone and nearly everyone but not my mom nor family (except my dad) for what we did not do. Me and both my sis was so furious with what she said and eventually shouted her.
What she did caused her daughter to runaway from home and was lost don’t know go where for 2 days. From that incident onward, she dare not phone my sis anymore nor my mom cause well, I think she herself know that we are furious. My friend’s father is more or less the same. She don’t care about them either and well, lecturer lectures right? That’s what he did. All he does is talk and talk.
Family No.2-
This also refers to a friend of mine’s family. She came from a rich rich family and can be considered as millionaire. Big bungalow, big cars and big land. Her dad is very um…ego and very bold and his rule is simple, ‘You obey me and you can get what you want.’ So, friend and her two other siblings never disobey their father. Why? She’s quite out going while her brother is a bit like me. Game game and more game. He’s my very good friend too. Know them since I was very small. Way very small. She is the eldest followed by brother then sister again.
Her youngest sister is the most lucky one. Cause her father’s ‘Golden Child’ (direct translation from Hockien) is her. Until now she is standard six and her father just scold and beat her once. Back to the elder sister. Once she disobey her father and she was not allowed to eat, watch tv or do anything for a total 24 hours. Even her mom have to obey her father.
Then my good friend. Well I think you guessed it. Was disallowed to play games for some days and well, weep weep and weep. His father is quite abusive too. Last time, he used to abuse his wife. Beat and slap. No he ain’t no drink beer nor take drugs. Just ego, plain ego. But now he’s a better person. On the olden days, he’s very furious and doesn’t smile. I don’t even dare to talk to him. But nowadays, he’s a better person. Take jokes and tends to make fun of others too. And he never abuse his wife anymore too. But the golden rule is still there. Once, I ask my friend why she don’t dare to rebel once in a while. And this is her reply.
“Oh no no no. I rebelled once before and I was (like what I mentioned in the upper part). Besides, I have all the things I want and everything is perfect for me. So why rebel?”
My family-
To me, I consider as a perfect family if I have a better father. We siblings too tend to argue but now I am the youngest, 16 and my sis are both 19 and 20 yrs old. So less fights and arguments of course. Three of us have the common thing in family. Respect mom like superhero and dislike dad like he’s ‘Mr. I Know Everything” MIKE for short. I came from a moderate family. During my grandfather’s generation, we are from a rich rich family that came from Fukien. Our whole family migrated here because of something I don’t know what but we are not the ‘slaves’. We (my ancestors) came here using their own pocket money during the British Occupation.
Some conflict happened and my gramps was not one of them to obtaining parts of the ‘treasure’. My gramps has 15 siblings including himself. He’s the eldest male in the family and yeah, I know I have a BIG BIG family. Until now, me myself never even met some of my own relatives before. And there’s a saying that if our whole Oung family gather together and try to take a family photo, we can’t even fit in. Another one is that, whenever we see someone with the surname Oung, it must be one of ourselves. It is really rare to see people with the surname Oung. And for your information that occurs many times before, when one of us met another unknown person with surname Oung, it was surely our own relative. Okay back to my story. There’s a conflict happened and my gramps was not one of them to get the things like antiques, lands, golds and money from my great gramps.
Therefore, he started anew and viola, a moderate family. Now my father. He is a very bold person too. What he said is always correct and never wrong. And from that, we (siblings) always ended up arguing with him. We love our mother very much but not our father. But well, since my family is a mixture of Taoist, Confucius and Buddhist, we the child are not allowed to argue with the elders and therefore, we ended up losing. He will always say ‘wa…big d hor, can take care of yourself d hor, have wings d la. Bo dua bo seh’. Means that we cannot or I shall say musnt and never fight with parents. Parents is always right. And well, like I say before I am agnostic therefore those are rubbish to me. One last thing, ‘Think first before you say and you do.’ Cheuh… crap. He doesn’t even take this concept in his mind. He doesn’t even think first before he do and when he talk. Is just like what I told him before, don’t be like the crab ask his son to walk straight. Is a direct translation from a Malay proverb.
9 th October 2006.
1932 Hrs.
-End-
Family No.1-
Family of the friend of mine. Her parent does not understand her at all. They got two daughters. One of them is a bit handicap where her left eye is fake, which is her younger sister. She came from a quite rich family but unhappy family. The only person that is very dear to her is her grandfather who give her much much money to spend with no question ask. But as she predicted, after her grandpa’s death, her life won’t be that pleasant anymore. She used to came to our house very often and usually overnight here for many days.
My mom is fine with it since she is also a good girl and not the wild type. She doesn’t like to go home as you know. Okay now her parents. His father is a part time lecturer while her mother is um…not sure…all I know is a boss. Her mother is the worst mother I ever seen on Earth. Why? Accuse her daughter for being ‘broke back’ while she isn’t. I still remember what she quoted when she came to our house and complain about her ‘naughty’ daughter.
“If I have the time, I would like to work all day long rather than being at home.”
What the heck she mean? It means that she don’t want to take care of her children and work work work. All the time is money money money to her. All she can do is give her daughter money and buy what they want. Another one is when her sister bully her, her mom just ignore but when she bully her sister and one word ‘Mom’ from her sister will get her into deep trouble all right. Once, her sister bit(bite) her, and she complain to her mom, and guess what she said,
“Is none of my business. Take care of the problem yourself.”
Of course she don’t dare to bite her sister back or she will be in deep trouble. So she call my sis up and well… fetched her here. Now an example of what she did to her sister. Once they were arguing about TV where she wanna watch a movie while her sis wanna watch Disney Channel. Her sis just complain to her mom and she has to let her sis to watch the Disney Channel and get scolded badly too. Now what the heck does the quote, “Is none of my business” now eh? Now she came less often cause of a BIG argument took place in our house. And worst, her mom refuses to listen to others and like to blame others for what happened to her daughter(s). She blame my mother for letting her daughter stay at our house and ‘corrupting’ her and ‘converted’ her into ‘broke back’. What the heck? She can blame anyone and nearly everyone but not my mom nor family (except my dad) for what we did not do. Me and both my sis was so furious with what she said and eventually shouted her.
What she did caused her daughter to runaway from home and was lost don’t know go where for 2 days. From that incident onward, she dare not phone my sis anymore nor my mom cause well, I think she herself know that we are furious. My friend’s father is more or less the same. She don’t care about them either and well, lecturer lectures right? That’s what he did. All he does is talk and talk.
Family No.2-
This also refers to a friend of mine’s family. She came from a rich rich family and can be considered as millionaire. Big bungalow, big cars and big land. Her dad is very um…ego and very bold and his rule is simple, ‘You obey me and you can get what you want.’ So, friend and her two other siblings never disobey their father. Why? She’s quite out going while her brother is a bit like me. Game game and more game. He’s my very good friend too. Know them since I was very small. Way very small. She is the eldest followed by brother then sister again.
Her youngest sister is the most lucky one. Cause her father’s ‘Golden Child’ (direct translation from Hockien) is her. Until now she is standard six and her father just scold and beat her once. Back to the elder sister. Once she disobey her father and she was not allowed to eat, watch tv or do anything for a total 24 hours. Even her mom have to obey her father.
Then my good friend. Well I think you guessed it. Was disallowed to play games for some days and well, weep weep and weep. His father is quite abusive too. Last time, he used to abuse his wife. Beat and slap. No he ain’t no drink beer nor take drugs. Just ego, plain ego. But now he’s a better person. On the olden days, he’s very furious and doesn’t smile. I don’t even dare to talk to him. But nowadays, he’s a better person. Take jokes and tends to make fun of others too. And he never abuse his wife anymore too. But the golden rule is still there. Once, I ask my friend why she don’t dare to rebel once in a while. And this is her reply.
“Oh no no no. I rebelled once before and I was (like what I mentioned in the upper part). Besides, I have all the things I want and everything is perfect for me. So why rebel?”
My family-
To me, I consider as a perfect family if I have a better father. We siblings too tend to argue but now I am the youngest, 16 and my sis are both 19 and 20 yrs old. So less fights and arguments of course. Three of us have the common thing in family. Respect mom like superhero and dislike dad like he’s ‘Mr. I Know Everything” MIKE for short. I came from a moderate family. During my grandfather’s generation, we are from a rich rich family that came from Fukien. Our whole family migrated here because of something I don’t know what but we are not the ‘slaves’. We (my ancestors) came here using their own pocket money during the British Occupation.
Some conflict happened and my gramps was not one of them to obtaining parts of the ‘treasure’. My gramps has 15 siblings including himself. He’s the eldest male in the family and yeah, I know I have a BIG BIG family. Until now, me myself never even met some of my own relatives before. And there’s a saying that if our whole Oung family gather together and try to take a family photo, we can’t even fit in. Another one is that, whenever we see someone with the surname Oung, it must be one of ourselves. It is really rare to see people with the surname Oung. And for your information that occurs many times before, when one of us met another unknown person with surname Oung, it was surely our own relative. Okay back to my story. There’s a conflict happened and my gramps was not one of them to get the things like antiques, lands, golds and money from my great gramps.
Therefore, he started anew and viola, a moderate family. Now my father. He is a very bold person too. What he said is always correct and never wrong. And from that, we (siblings) always ended up arguing with him. We love our mother very much but not our father. But well, since my family is a mixture of Taoist, Confucius and Buddhist, we the child are not allowed to argue with the elders and therefore, we ended up losing. He will always say ‘wa…big d hor, can take care of yourself d hor, have wings d la. Bo dua bo seh’. Means that we cannot or I shall say musnt and never fight with parents. Parents is always right. And well, like I say before I am agnostic therefore those are rubbish to me. One last thing, ‘Think first before you say and you do.’ Cheuh… crap. He doesn’t even take this concept in his mind. He doesn’t even think first before he do and when he talk. Is just like what I told him before, don’t be like the crab ask his son to walk straight. Is a direct translation from a Malay proverb.
9 th October 2006.
1932 Hrs.
-End-
Is it game yet?
In order to keep the privacy of those peoples I mention, I will not state their gender and name.
First of all, I rejected another 3 proposals although the strike of their beauty-ness is there. One of them is being very persistent and that person is getting on my nerve. I know you do read this and I wanna tell you that I am single but not available once again. I am just wondering, if its worth it. What do I mean by that eh? Well I promise that person I will not mention it openly so I think this will do. Just a short summary of it.
I like this person and ‘it’ has same age as mine. I asked this person once but I was rejected and from that time onward, I knew that nothing is gonna happen between both of us. And just like a proverb in Malay which goes, “tepuk sebelah tangan tidak akan berbunyi”. If you don’t know what it means then I am sorry. Not interested in explaining. And that’s the time I realize I was over the limit and enough is enough. Although all these things happened in just quite a short time, I still cant forget about it. I tends to think about that person and sometimes I am just thinking if what I did is worth it. -Wow the song I am listening now really suits the thing I am writing now. Love song :) - What I did in the past was wrong and a big mistake and I swear not to repeat it again.
I think most probably you don’t really get what I meant but all I am trying to do is to give you a small picture of it and the rest is up to your imagination.
I always question myself, am I handsome or something like that? Why so many unknowns always get my cell phone from nowhere and just ring or message me up. I’ve changed my number but I still get the unknowns. To me, I am neither cute nor handsome at all. I am thin, very thin and pimples on my face and I am not cool at all. But who the heck are they? And every time I ask them who the heck are they, they will usually answer ‘you don’t know me but I know you for a long time’ or ‘I get your number from a friend of yours’ or ‘someone ask me to ring you up’ or ‘I just trying to make some friends’.
In my mind, there’s only 2 person who’s capable of doing so but I don’t have proves. So, I decided to get out of it and go on with my life. Just one questions for those annoying peoples. WHAT’S WRONG WITH ALL OF YOU?
6 th October 2006.
2231 Hrs.
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First of all, I rejected another 3 proposals although the strike of their beauty-ness is there. One of them is being very persistent and that person is getting on my nerve. I know you do read this and I wanna tell you that I am single but not available once again. I am just wondering, if its worth it. What do I mean by that eh? Well I promise that person I will not mention it openly so I think this will do. Just a short summary of it.
I like this person and ‘it’ has same age as mine. I asked this person once but I was rejected and from that time onward, I knew that nothing is gonna happen between both of us. And just like a proverb in Malay which goes, “tepuk sebelah tangan tidak akan berbunyi”. If you don’t know what it means then I am sorry. Not interested in explaining. And that’s the time I realize I was over the limit and enough is enough. Although all these things happened in just quite a short time, I still cant forget about it. I tends to think about that person and sometimes I am just thinking if what I did is worth it. -Wow the song I am listening now really suits the thing I am writing now. Love song :) - What I did in the past was wrong and a big mistake and I swear not to repeat it again.
I think most probably you don’t really get what I meant but all I am trying to do is to give you a small picture of it and the rest is up to your imagination.
I always question myself, am I handsome or something like that? Why so many unknowns always get my cell phone from nowhere and just ring or message me up. I’ve changed my number but I still get the unknowns. To me, I am neither cute nor handsome at all. I am thin, very thin and pimples on my face and I am not cool at all. But who the heck are they? And every time I ask them who the heck are they, they will usually answer ‘you don’t know me but I know you for a long time’ or ‘I get your number from a friend of yours’ or ‘someone ask me to ring you up’ or ‘I just trying to make some friends’.
In my mind, there’s only 2 person who’s capable of doing so but I don’t have proves. So, I decided to get out of it and go on with my life. Just one questions for those annoying peoples. WHAT’S WRONG WITH ALL OF YOU?
6 th October 2006.
2231 Hrs.
-End-
Sometimes.
Sometimes I wonder if I am alive.
Sometimes I wonder if I am real.
Sometimes I wonder if this is just a dream.
Sometimes I wonder if I am living in a cell.
Sometimes I ask myself ‘if it’s worth for?’
Sometimes I ask myself ‘if this works.’
Sometimes I ask myself ‘does wish comes true?’
Sometimes I ask myself ‘why discrimination happens?’
Sometimes I just wonder,
If there’s always a meaning behind everything that happens/happened.
Sometimes I just wonder,
Does every action have a reaction?
Sometimes I just wonder,
Is there Heaven and Hell?
Is there Gods and Devils?
Is there Good and Bad?
Is there Angels and Demons?
Why does every action have a reaction?
Is it to make it balanced?
Sometimes I just wonder,
Since we are all humans, and live in the same world, why can’t we be united?
Why is there so many wars waging for day, month, years, decade and even centuries?
Why all the religions cannot seem to understand each other?
They teach us to behave well so and so but why there is still war waging between countries and even religions like the misunderstandings on the world of Islam and the Catholics or something like that.
In the history about the Islam, the Nabi himself waged for war. Is this what they teach us? It is right to protect ourselves but according to the history, the God of the Islam sent an angel to tell Nabi to start the war or something like that. Is it right to do so?
If one is religious enough, then why war? Why not just sit back and relax? Why they want to increase their empire? If it’s for economics and stuffs, why they can’t find some other way to settle it?
They (a priest I saw during the exorcist they made to a F6 girl. And a teacher) say, if one does not have a religion, one would be very barbaric or something like that but am I? How ridiculous is that? And if one is religion-less, one would not be blessed by Gods. What is that suppose to mean? Just think about it. Every religion is interrelated. Why I say so? Just do some research about maybe 5 different types of religions and you will see the similarities. Lastly, who is the person that started to spread the news about the existence of gods? That makes the whole wide world but not everyone believe in gods. Does any of the olden people question about gods? Why we were not allow to question the power of gods?
If only someone could answer me all of those, I will be very satisfied. That’s one of the reason why I choose to stay agnostic rather that a Buddhist or Taoist like my parents.
I don’t care if you found what I said ridiculous or something like that and if I ever said something against your religion then I am sorry but that is the way I think and I never thought of converting anyone that reads this to free thinker or ask questions about God(s). It’s just my expression.
4 th October 2006.
0222 Hrs.
-End-
Sometimes I wonder if I am real.
Sometimes I wonder if this is just a dream.
Sometimes I wonder if I am living in a cell.
Sometimes I ask myself ‘if it’s worth for?’
Sometimes I ask myself ‘if this works.’
Sometimes I ask myself ‘does wish comes true?’
Sometimes I ask myself ‘why discrimination happens?’
Sometimes I just wonder,
If there’s always a meaning behind everything that happens/happened.
Sometimes I just wonder,
Does every action have a reaction?
Sometimes I just wonder,
Is there Heaven and Hell?
Is there Gods and Devils?
Is there Good and Bad?
Is there Angels and Demons?
Why does every action have a reaction?
Is it to make it balanced?
Sometimes I just wonder,
Since we are all humans, and live in the same world, why can’t we be united?
Why is there so many wars waging for day, month, years, decade and even centuries?
Why all the religions cannot seem to understand each other?
They teach us to behave well so and so but why there is still war waging between countries and even religions like the misunderstandings on the world of Islam and the Catholics or something like that.
In the history about the Islam, the Nabi himself waged for war. Is this what they teach us? It is right to protect ourselves but according to the history, the God of the Islam sent an angel to tell Nabi to start the war or something like that. Is it right to do so?
If one is religious enough, then why war? Why not just sit back and relax? Why they want to increase their empire? If it’s for economics and stuffs, why they can’t find some other way to settle it?
They (a priest I saw during the exorcist they made to a F6 girl. And a teacher) say, if one does not have a religion, one would be very barbaric or something like that but am I? How ridiculous is that? And if one is religion-less, one would not be blessed by Gods. What is that suppose to mean? Just think about it. Every religion is interrelated. Why I say so? Just do some research about maybe 5 different types of religions and you will see the similarities. Lastly, who is the person that started to spread the news about the existence of gods? That makes the whole wide world but not everyone believe in gods. Does any of the olden people question about gods? Why we were not allow to question the power of gods?
If only someone could answer me all of those, I will be very satisfied. That’s one of the reason why I choose to stay agnostic rather that a Buddhist or Taoist like my parents.
I don’t care if you found what I said ridiculous or something like that and if I ever said something against your religion then I am sorry but that is the way I think and I never thought of converting anyone that reads this to free thinker or ask questions about God(s). It’s just my expression.
4 th October 2006.
0222 Hrs.
-End-
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
Wish come true
Yesterday wasn’t a bad day at all. Let me tell you what happened. I’ll leave D’s part out. I don’t wanna talk bout him anymore. I missed my Candidates for Goddess on Animax cause of stupid school. Home at 3…tired…bath and wow… I was influenced to watch Law of Ueki. After that is God (?) Save Our King. This show is very nice. And if any of you watch it, but missed this week’s anime, then I tell you, I think Conrad is ALIVE! Why? There’s this scene where Yuuri and another guy, I don’t know who went for a competition in Big Cimaron. Then this part, there’s this mysterious guy saying ‘Yuuri’ and that’s it. If im not wrong, the voice of the person is CONRAD! Bout 1700++ fell asleep. 1800++ mom woke me up. Then is parade time. I saw some of them with total white attire and that reminds me of my late grandpa who used to participate in this parade. Sad…
Wow, mind you, they say that this parade is the largest for the Tua Ang Kong in about 80 years. About 19 groups participated in it and we are the host for this parade. So ours is the last and grandest. Sadly, I did not bring my camera along cause I forgot bout it. It is a long walk and the parade started at about 1900++ and ended at 0030++ Along the way, saw many so-called gods. Im just wondering if they are really gods or some kind of supernatural stuff imitating the so-called gods. But one thing for sure is that some of them (devotees) carries um…I don’t know what it is called in English but malay is ‘Tandu’ I think. All I know is the olden days’ rich Chinese people sit inside it and the thingie was carried by 4 person. But this one for the ‘gods’ was carried by 8 peoples. Man this is heavy.
My uncle told me once. When the ‘gods’ were placed inside it, it become heavier. Much heavier. It was shaking by itself and they have to carry it. When they went to temples, they have to um…use that thing and greet the gods. So, they ran back and forth 3 times and wow, about 5 more extras are needed to stop that thing. This one is just a small sized. The one with the big size need about 10 more extras. And it is shaking terribly. So, throughout the whole journey, we always evaded the thing.
Flashback. 29th September, Friday. I told Marcus that I never played in the rain before and I would like to try it at least once in my life. And there it is. Rained. Wish come true. About 2200++ Me, my friend and 2 of my cousins played in the rain. We get very dirty and splashed each other with waters. And I don’t know if this is true or not but 4 of us witnessed that during that time, there was no one in the road (cause vehicles were blocked somewhere back behind) and we were playing. Later on, we heard someone call us and turned back to see Cheek Gong, Chinese god. Don’t know what it is. He said ‘Wow it seems like all of you are having fun eh?’ Then we smiled. My cousin asked him if he saw what we did and he answer affirmatively. Weird huh? Although so many supernatural things happened, I still refuse to believe that they are the gods. I will still stick to my old self and my own beliefs.
Will stay agnostic until I found the answer from the ‘God(s)’. Does god(s) exist? Who is god(s)? What are they? When will they reveal themselves to us? Who started the God(s)’s theory/thingie? What happened in the past to let peoples in the world to believe that there are God(s)?
Lastly, am I someone like the guy in the movie ‘The Island'? Sweat…so many questions…hahahaha… XD
1st October 2006
1146 Hrs.
-End-
Wow, mind you, they say that this parade is the largest for the Tua Ang Kong in about 80 years. About 19 groups participated in it and we are the host for this parade. So ours is the last and grandest. Sadly, I did not bring my camera along cause I forgot bout it. It is a long walk and the parade started at about 1900++ and ended at 0030++ Along the way, saw many so-called gods. Im just wondering if they are really gods or some kind of supernatural stuff imitating the so-called gods. But one thing for sure is that some of them (devotees) carries um…I don’t know what it is called in English but malay is ‘Tandu’ I think. All I know is the olden days’ rich Chinese people sit inside it and the thingie was carried by 4 person. But this one for the ‘gods’ was carried by 8 peoples. Man this is heavy.
My uncle told me once. When the ‘gods’ were placed inside it, it become heavier. Much heavier. It was shaking by itself and they have to carry it. When they went to temples, they have to um…use that thing and greet the gods. So, they ran back and forth 3 times and wow, about 5 more extras are needed to stop that thing. This one is just a small sized. The one with the big size need about 10 more extras. And it is shaking terribly. So, throughout the whole journey, we always evaded the thing.
Flashback. 29th September, Friday. I told Marcus that I never played in the rain before and I would like to try it at least once in my life. And there it is. Rained. Wish come true. About 2200++ Me, my friend and 2 of my cousins played in the rain. We get very dirty and splashed each other with waters. And I don’t know if this is true or not but 4 of us witnessed that during that time, there was no one in the road (cause vehicles were blocked somewhere back behind) and we were playing. Later on, we heard someone call us and turned back to see Cheek Gong, Chinese god. Don’t know what it is. He said ‘Wow it seems like all of you are having fun eh?’ Then we smiled. My cousin asked him if he saw what we did and he answer affirmatively. Weird huh? Although so many supernatural things happened, I still refuse to believe that they are the gods. I will still stick to my old self and my own beliefs.
Will stay agnostic until I found the answer from the ‘God(s)’. Does god(s) exist? Who is god(s)? What are they? When will they reveal themselves to us? Who started the God(s)’s theory/thingie? What happened in the past to let peoples in the world to believe that there are God(s)?
Lastly, am I someone like the guy in the movie ‘The Island'? Sweat…so many questions…hahahaha… XD
1st October 2006
1146 Hrs.
-End-
Byzantine
Today im a bit dirty… :p I woke up late about 0710 and so I was rushing for time. I did not bath sweat… Brush teeth, drink yucky milo, pack my books and vroom…school. Within 10 minutes, im done. I cover my maybe smelly body with some um…is it called as perfume too for guys??? All right, whatever.
During recess… my ‘boyfriend’ (konon) starting to get back his own routine which is… whispering to his friend/ best friend about me. Then both started to come at look at me eating. As usual. All because of a someone’s ‘good work’. Sigh…what done is done… One day if I really cant stand it, all im gonna do is shout at him and well, the rest is up to the future. Not only me, Edward and Eric Capel (I think) can’t stand of him. Even Nazrin can’t get the hang of it. He take someone’s stuff without even asking then just whoosh…grab, use and put back. Is that rude enough? No?? All right how about this, A (does not exist) is using something i.e. eraser then D just grab from A, use it then give A back. Duh… I consider that mega rude
Everyone started to notice his ‘weirdness’ except Meng Jon who kept protesting that it’s my own assumption or so. Oh yeah…this is funny. Edward told me that every time someone say a title of a song or sing/sang it, D will start to follow. And his verbosity, sigh…craps. After school is over and im lazy to go for the Buddhist meeting, I persuaded Marcus to accompany me at least for a while and so I followed him to ‘tour’ around school. It was raining at that time and I just found out that it is very nice to play in the rain. I never play in the rain before. Well, I gonna try it one day.
Homed. Haihz…bored…ate, nap then stupid Darren shout here and there and eventually woke up. Mom is going for wedding dinner so I am free ^-^. Ate ASAP, bath then vroom…PS2!!! Same old Dynasty Warriors of course. Then I am here now. Sis read what I typed and sigh…don’t wanna make any misconception so tried to explain but she always has things in her mind so she just walk away and asked who is this ‘boyfriend’. Tried to explain but she doesn’t seem to listen. Fine…I got nothing to do with it and that’s it. Messaged god-bro and got info that he has exam next week. Aw… Never mind. Just gambateh all right?
29th September 2006 .
-End-
During recess… my ‘boyfriend’ (konon) starting to get back his own routine which is… whispering to his friend/ best friend about me. Then both started to come at look at me eating. As usual. All because of a someone’s ‘good work’. Sigh…what done is done… One day if I really cant stand it, all im gonna do is shout at him and well, the rest is up to the future. Not only me, Edward and Eric Capel (I think) can’t stand of him. Even Nazrin can’t get the hang of it. He take someone’s stuff without even asking then just whoosh…grab, use and put back. Is that rude enough? No?? All right how about this, A (does not exist) is using something i.e. eraser then D just grab from A, use it then give A back. Duh… I consider that mega rude
Everyone started to notice his ‘weirdness’ except Meng Jon who kept protesting that it’s my own assumption or so. Oh yeah…this is funny. Edward told me that every time someone say a title of a song or sing/sang it, D will start to follow. And his verbosity, sigh…craps. After school is over and im lazy to go for the Buddhist meeting, I persuaded Marcus to accompany me at least for a while and so I followed him to ‘tour’ around school. It was raining at that time and I just found out that it is very nice to play in the rain. I never play in the rain before. Well, I gonna try it one day.
Homed. Haihz…bored…ate, nap then stupid Darren shout here and there and eventually woke up. Mom is going for wedding dinner so I am free ^-^. Ate ASAP, bath then vroom…PS2!!! Same old Dynasty Warriors of course. Then I am here now. Sis read what I typed and sigh…don’t wanna make any misconception so tried to explain but she always has things in her mind so she just walk away and asked who is this ‘boyfriend’. Tried to explain but she doesn’t seem to listen. Fine…I got nothing to do with it and that’s it. Messaged god-bro and got info that he has exam next week. Aw… Never mind. Just gambateh all right?
-End-
In A Perfect World.
For the kickoff.
I never could have seen this far
I never could have seen this coming
it seems like my world's falling apart, yeah
why is everything so hard?
I don't think that I can deal with
The things that you said, just wont go away
In a perfect world, this could never happen
In a perfect world, you'd still be here
And it makes no sense, I could just pick up the pieces
But to you this means nothing, nothing at all
I used to think that I was strong
Until the day it all went wrong
I think I need a miracle to make it through, yeah
I wish that I could bring you back
I wish that I could turn back time
Cause I can't let go, I just can't find my way, yeah
Without you I just can't find my way
In a perfect world, this could never happen
In a perfect world, you'd still be here
And it makes no sense, I could just pick up the pieces
But to you this means nothing, nothing at all
I don't know what I should do now
I don't know where I should go
I'm still here waiting for you
I'm lost when you're not around
I need to hold onto you
I just can't let you go
Yeah, yeah
In a perfect world, this could never happen
In a perfect world, you'd still be here
And it makes no sense, I could just pick up the pieces
But to you this means nothing, nothing at all
You feel nothing, nothing at all
Nothing at all
By Simple Plan.
Well…today is really a very bad day and I might call it as a worst day ever. First I woke up late and I had to iron my own shirt and pants cause me, mom and dad slept late last night. Then everything went on smoothly and that Goh Teng Kiang, (GTK which stands for GOTHIKA for me and I don’t know I call him so) always disappear without a single note and let us wait him at that filthy, dusty lab. Well maybe just outside of the lab. Wow…I can’t believe that many of us in the class scare of D-Phobia. XD I’m the one who started it lolz. Okay… then during Bio, nearly everyone has to do presentation or a small talk in front of the class. Kenshi is there and of course erh…hemmm…ignore. (I won’t reveal who is Kenshi to all of you anyway. Just extra info. Kenshi is not OML [pronounced as ohm]). Then is my turn. I peeped to where Phobia sat and what the heck? He is giggling and sweat…some sort like playing hide and seek with me. Huh??? Everything went smoothly after that but…mathematics period! Khor was some sort repairing / learning to fix the bell thingie so he was out for a period.
Since nothing to do, walk around here and there. A bit of chit chat with Marcus and others. Went to toilet with Meng Jon. Punch each other some more. Then started to kid around the BOOM!!! He pushed me down. Forgot why but I just sat on the floor. Well we were playing so of course I don’t get mad. Then he started to tease me that he got learn stupid kung fu stuff and I don’t and then I walk away. Since nothing to do, then I walk around here and there/ touring in the class. A bit of chit chat with Marcus and others. Then Meng Jon was kinda alone. Aw…what a pity…NOT! Well here I go. Go there chat with him a bit. Then he’s a bit lose. (Out of sums if you get what I mean.) So I lend him some bucks. I don’t mind if he don’t/ forgot to pay me back. Is just a small sum anyway. He need it to photocopy some notes for an anonymous and im not the GOSSIP type person so I don’t even bother to ask.
Meng Jon: Hey, why not you go and Photostat for me?
Me: (stare at him as if he’s from Mars)
Meng Jon: C’mon la…friend ma hor???
Me: (grab the bucks and papers)
Both walk in the same direction. Stopped at D-Phobia’s place.
Meng Jon: Why don’t you ask your ‘boyfriend’ (konon) [is in Malay which stands for ‘as if’ or something like that] to go with you?
Me: (shocked, petrified, angry, speechless)
D-Phobia: What did you said? (Stand up, stomped his leg, smiling all the time) *I forgot this part cause I was totally stunned and angry by what he said* (sit back down)
Both of us walked away a bit.
Me: Uh…I don’t like to joke with this stuff. (Forced smile to cover my angriness from being shown)
Meng Jon: (kept smiling) *forgot this part too*
Me: I don’t wanna go already and he’s not my boyfriend or whatever. (A bit of angry in my face)
Meng Jon: (kept smiling) *stupid* (grab back from me then walk to Marcus’s desk/corner)
Me: (Walk away somewhere.) *still angry and stunned*
Then I know what is going to happen next. How do you spell them??? M…I…S…U…N…D…E…R…S…T…A…N…D…I…N…G… Yeah. That’s right. Walk to D’s place and there he is telling Red Banana bout what happen. He kept smiling!!! And that’s a very bad sign to me. To think of it makes me feel so disgusted. Why I know he likes me??? Is a looooooooong story and I‘ll left it for next time. If I remember of coz. Complained to Edward. (Yeah…we talked to each other more and more already. Like I said before. What done is done. And after a loooooong misunderstanding between friends, I think is over for it.) And haihz…my mind wasn’t in the class for that moment and so…I forgot everything.
Then the next and last period. Khor is here. Taught about transformation. Bla bla bla…yada yada yada… then oh my gosh!!! D-FOOOOOOHBIAAAAAAA!!! He was sitting in front of me and now he’s lying on my desk. Fine I thought. Just don’t near him or touch him to get rid of that misunderstanding. He occasionally turn behind, looked at me, smile then giggle to himself. PSYCH… im going CRAZY!!! Trying to tell Meng Jon of what he has done but he either felt guilty/annoyed by me/think im crazy/ whatever and ignored me. Pulled his hair tried to tell him and he don’t get it. Fine…I’ll settle this myself like always. Kenshi was there but sigh…enough is enough and I don’t wanna find troubles for others.
Home. Slept without doing anything including changing my cloths. Take off my shirt, ½ nude and ZZZzzzzz… As usual, Ojiji (is in Japs which stands for old geezer) or my dad caused me go to tuition late. Don’t like people to mumble but his butt just seem to cant move faster, then when it is nearly time, he will rush like hell. Sad, Guendeline (my cousin) wasn’t here today. Maybe she changed the day for tuition. Neway, I’ll phone her tomorrow.
Finished tuition. Ojiji is there and droved me and my sis to bank and withdraw some money. And oh wow…im amazed. For the first time in my 12 years in Penang, the stage soap opera at my grandmother’s house was packed with people. Old people of course. Well I watch the opera too and I found it quite interesting and best of all is in Hockien and not Teowchew. The story is about the history of Fan Li Fa and Sit Yan Kuai. Is a love story naturally. Hm…I see you’re asking why there are soap opera at my grand’s place huh? Well each year, there will be 3 or 4 soap operas and ‘getai’ stage singing performance. It is where they made this for the celebration of certain kind of Taoist gods’ birthday or something like that. This month is the celebration of ‘Tua Ang Kong’ literal translation is Big God. Lolz…and this Saturday night is going to be a parade for it and im going too ^-^.
Location: Around the town area and port area.
Time: Starts about 6pm from Jelutong.
Date: 30th September.
It is going to be fun and sigh…mom will be there and I must respect the Gods. I am the black sheep of my family. My whole family is Taoist and respect the Gods but not me. Im a free thinker and I join Buddhist Society at school, went to certain churches and even Indian celebrations and stuffs. I would like to be free until I found the answer I want from those so-called Gods.
Well. There’s not internet connection in my house anymore and don’t even bother to ask why cause I’m lazy to explain. So, usually I will only update my blog whenever I go to internet cafes or I will find some other ways. Oh yeah...if I post too many at a time, then look at the date written by myself and not the date that appears.
28th September 2006.
0207 Hrs.
-End-
I never could have seen this far
I never could have seen this coming
it seems like my world's falling apart, yeah
why is everything so hard?
I don't think that I can deal with
The things that you said, just wont go away
In a perfect world, this could never happen
In a perfect world, you'd still be here
And it makes no sense, I could just pick up the pieces
But to you this means nothing, nothing at all
I used to think that I was strong
Until the day it all went wrong
I think I need a miracle to make it through, yeah
I wish that I could bring you back
I wish that I could turn back time
Cause I can't let go, I just can't find my way, yeah
Without you I just can't find my way
In a perfect world, this could never happen
In a perfect world, you'd still be here
And it makes no sense, I could just pick up the pieces
But to you this means nothing, nothing at all
I don't know what I should do now
I don't know where I should go
I'm still here waiting for you
I'm lost when you're not around
I need to hold onto you
I just can't let you go
Yeah, yeah
In a perfect world, this could never happen
In a perfect world, you'd still be here
And it makes no sense, I could just pick up the pieces
But to you this means nothing, nothing at all
You feel nothing, nothing at all
Nothing at all
By Simple Plan.
Well…today is really a very bad day and I might call it as a worst day ever. First I woke up late and I had to iron my own shirt and pants cause me, mom and dad slept late last night. Then everything went on smoothly and that Goh Teng Kiang, (GTK which stands for GOTHIKA for me and I don’t know I call him so) always disappear without a single note and let us wait him at that filthy, dusty lab. Well maybe just outside of the lab. Wow…I can’t believe that many of us in the class scare of D-Phobia. XD I’m the one who started it lolz. Okay… then during Bio, nearly everyone has to do presentation or a small talk in front of the class. Kenshi is there and of course erh…hemmm…ignore. (I won’t reveal who is Kenshi to all of you anyway. Just extra info. Kenshi is not OML [pronounced as ohm]). Then is my turn. I peeped to where Phobia sat and what the heck? He is giggling and sweat…some sort like playing hide and seek with me. Huh??? Everything went smoothly after that but…mathematics period! Khor was some sort repairing / learning to fix the bell thingie so he was out for a period.
Since nothing to do, walk around here and there. A bit of chit chat with Marcus and others. Went to toilet with Meng Jon. Punch each other some more. Then started to kid around the BOOM!!! He pushed me down. Forgot why but I just sat on the floor. Well we were playing so of course I don’t get mad. Then he started to tease me that he got learn stupid kung fu stuff and I don’t and then I walk away. Since nothing to do, then I walk around here and there/ touring in the class. A bit of chit chat with Marcus and others. Then Meng Jon was kinda alone. Aw…what a pity…NOT! Well here I go. Go there chat with him a bit. Then he’s a bit lose. (Out of sums if you get what I mean.) So I lend him some bucks. I don’t mind if he don’t/ forgot to pay me back. Is just a small sum anyway. He need it to photocopy some notes for an anonymous and im not the GOSSIP type person so I don’t even bother to ask.
Meng Jon: Hey, why not you go and Photostat for me?
Me: (stare at him as if he’s from Mars)
Meng Jon: C’mon la…friend ma hor???
Me: (grab the bucks and papers)
Both walk in the same direction. Stopped at D-Phobia’s place.
Meng Jon: Why don’t you ask your ‘boyfriend’ (konon) [is in Malay which stands for ‘as if’ or something like that] to go with you?
Me: (shocked, petrified, angry, speechless)
D-Phobia: What did you said? (Stand up, stomped his leg, smiling all the time) *I forgot this part cause I was totally stunned and angry by what he said* (sit back down)
Both of us walked away a bit.
Me: Uh…I don’t like to joke with this stuff. (Forced smile to cover my angriness from being shown)
Meng Jon: (kept smiling) *forgot this part too*
Me: I don’t wanna go already and he’s not my boyfriend or whatever. (A bit of angry in my face)
Meng Jon: (kept smiling) *stupid* (grab back from me then walk to Marcus’s desk/corner)
Me: (Walk away somewhere.) *still angry and stunned*
Then I know what is going to happen next. How do you spell them??? M…I…S…U…N…D…E…R…S…T…A…N…D…I…N…G… Yeah. That’s right. Walk to D’s place and there he is telling Red Banana bout what happen. He kept smiling!!! And that’s a very bad sign to me. To think of it makes me feel so disgusted. Why I know he likes me??? Is a looooooooong story and I‘ll left it for next time. If I remember of coz. Complained to Edward. (Yeah…we talked to each other more and more already. Like I said before. What done is done. And after a loooooong misunderstanding between friends, I think is over for it.) And haihz…my mind wasn’t in the class for that moment and so…I forgot everything.
Then the next and last period. Khor is here. Taught about transformation. Bla bla bla…yada yada yada… then oh my gosh!!! D-FOOOOOOHBIAAAAAAA!!! He was sitting in front of me and now he’s lying on my desk. Fine I thought. Just don’t near him or touch him to get rid of that misunderstanding. He occasionally turn behind, looked at me, smile then giggle to himself. PSYCH… im going CRAZY!!! Trying to tell Meng Jon of what he has done but he either felt guilty/annoyed by me/think im crazy/ whatever and ignored me. Pulled his hair tried to tell him and he don’t get it. Fine…I’ll settle this myself like always. Kenshi was there but sigh…enough is enough and I don’t wanna find troubles for others.
Home. Slept without doing anything including changing my cloths. Take off my shirt, ½ nude and ZZZzzzzz… As usual, Ojiji (is in Japs which stands for old geezer) or my dad caused me go to tuition late. Don’t like people to mumble but his butt just seem to cant move faster, then when it is nearly time, he will rush like hell. Sad, Guendeline (my cousin) wasn’t here today. Maybe she changed the day for tuition. Neway, I’ll phone her tomorrow.
Finished tuition. Ojiji is there and droved me and my sis to bank and withdraw some money. And oh wow…im amazed. For the first time in my 12 years in Penang, the stage soap opera at my grandmother’s house was packed with people. Old people of course. Well I watch the opera too and I found it quite interesting and best of all is in Hockien and not Teowchew. The story is about the history of Fan Li Fa and Sit Yan Kuai. Is a love story naturally. Hm…I see you’re asking why there are soap opera at my grand’s place huh? Well each year, there will be 3 or 4 soap operas and ‘getai’ stage singing performance. It is where they made this for the celebration of certain kind of Taoist gods’ birthday or something like that. This month is the celebration of ‘Tua Ang Kong’ literal translation is Big God. Lolz…and this Saturday night is going to be a parade for it and im going too ^-^.
Location: Around the town area and port area.
Time: Starts about 6pm from Jelutong.
Date: 30th September.
It is going to be fun and sigh…mom will be there and I must respect the Gods. I am the black sheep of my family. My whole family is Taoist and respect the Gods but not me. Im a free thinker and I join Buddhist Society at school, went to certain churches and even Indian celebrations and stuffs. I would like to be free until I found the answer I want from those so-called Gods.
Well. There’s not internet connection in my house anymore and don’t even bother to ask why cause I’m lazy to explain. So, usually I will only update my blog whenever I go to internet cafes or I will find some other ways. Oh yeah...if I post too many at a time, then look at the date written by myself and not the date that appears.
28th September 2006.
0207 Hrs.
-End-
Friday, September 22, 2006
Your 'servant' got no skills.
Wow...What the heck. My connection was down for 2 days. Why? Who? And how? All is Des, Des and more Des. Well I see you're asking who the heck is Des eh??? Well lemme intro a bit bout him. Knew him since um...11 i think. Not a M'sian. And he's a freak! Why? Cantonese people call these kind of people 'Pai Ka Chai' or a rich guy who doesn't have anything better to do but waste their parents' money. Nicknamed Dessarue, short form Des. Other infos is not available cause I don't wanna talk bout this guy. Well nevermind since im gonna end my usage on Streamyx, most probably. Okay forget bout him let's talk a bit bout something else.
First thing i did early in the morning is...go toilet. I got stomach ache early in the morning and later i found out i had constipation. I cant force my waste to leave my body and that's very annnoying. But luckily, about 0800 (in school), the gastric juice in my stomach was 'released' and it really helped me to 'burn' those 'rubbish'. Immediately, i asked my teacher for permission to the toilet and lolz...she was giving a 'hidden smile' and gosh...i feel so shy. Maybe it wasnt suitable to tell a teacher you're going to toilet for BIG business. Then wow...feel so relieved...those things came out AH....the back to the class.
-Flashback- (before toilet and after went to school)
Wow...first news I get from Meng Jon today was "Your MP3 was confiscated." I thought he was joking so i just ignore it but then later i heard T'ng Choong asking him who's MP3 is that and i just realize that it is real but what the heck? Is not a big deal and well i am not afraid at all. Why? I dont really give a damn bout the MP3. None of us (siblings) uses it for more than 3 months and so what the heck? Both my sis has MP3 phones therefore, they dont need that. And Meng Jon was like so scare or what i dont know and he went to find the teacher responsible for it or what-so-ever. I dont know...but all i know is the teacher's name is Mani (not Air Mani FYI) and she is one of the perfect teacher. Then when i was about to go to the toilet for um... you know what, i walked by her with Meng Jon and i because i was in a BIG pain, i didnt notice i passed by them and sigh...Meng Jon called me...and oh gosh...the pain and there she is mumbling and mumbling. Then some minutes that feels like eternity to me ended and gosh...what a luck. The janitors are cleaning the toilet so...ouch...endure endure endure...some time like 30 minutes or so (after gastric juice), i go again and yay! Is available now.
Wow... D-Phobia was like as if discriminated from us during Chemistry period. I dont really wanna explain that so...as a conclusion, i will skip this part. I dont really wanna mention bout D-Phobia. Okay ring!!! Recess...i aint gonna eat anything. So, just a cup of milo drink will do. Then to the Resource Room. As usual Kheng Joo (um...they adress him as a retard which is a bad thing. But sometimes, what he did is so humourous.) is there and this time, he's asking the people whom he doesnt know for email adress just to somehow fill up his friendster thingie. I dont know what's so great bout it. Oh what the heck. I dont give a damn anyway. Then Deepak. The worst person i ever met. 50 times worse than D-Phobia. I'll just call him the worst of the bad's worse's worst's worst. If you get what i mean of course. Let me tell you what he did in the way of dialogue.
Deepak: William. (slap himself)
Me: (Ignore)
Deepak: William. (slap himself)
Me: What? (annoyed)
Deepak: Hey, i heard that the girl [whom she assume that the girl is crazy and always gossiping to everyone about her whenever he sees her] also read the same book you read. Why dont you go and have a conversation with her?
Me: So? That's none of my business! (annoyed)
Deepak: What is he saying? (looking at his friend Er Win...i dont know how to spell his name. But i adress him as Ew Win)
Ew Win: Dont know.
Me: (repeat)
Deepak: Is he talking English?
Me: Yeah...oh no...im speaking Japs. (sacarsm)
Deepak: Hahahha... (sacarsm)
What he said then is totally none of my business although they are talking bout me. Well why wanna care? He will get it once he gets to the adult world so i'll let experiance itself punish him.
At home. Tired...played games and half way, mom ask me to take care of Darren, my lil' cousin. First, his diapers somehow exploded and therefore, he's partially naked. No is not top. Is below. My mom wanna take him to bath after she finished mopping the floor and i have to babysit him for that period. Back concentrating on my game...then...what is that smell??? Smells like shit. I stare at him and OH MY GOSH!!! Shit on the floor!!! Not a little but much! He stepped on it and argh!!! The smell...i started to choke cause i dont like these smell. Who likes them anyway (sacarsm)? Then he started stamping his feet on the floor cause he's a clean freak and the shit on his leg makes him feel annoyed too. And argh!!! His feet kicked my feet and wowziez...SHIT ON MY LEGS!!! I started to shout at my mom at the top of my lungs and my mom rush came in laughing. CLeaned and after a few hours, i found out that there's still a bit of his waste at my legs. Cleaned and done. That all for today.
Komenasai...
First thing i did early in the morning is...go toilet. I got stomach ache early in the morning and later i found out i had constipation. I cant force my waste to leave my body and that's very annnoying. But luckily, about 0800 (in school), the gastric juice in my stomach was 'released' and it really helped me to 'burn' those 'rubbish'. Immediately, i asked my teacher for permission to the toilet and lolz...she was giving a 'hidden smile' and gosh...i feel so shy. Maybe it wasnt suitable to tell a teacher you're going to toilet for BIG business. Then wow...feel so relieved...those things came out AH....the back to the class.
-Flashback- (before toilet and after went to school)
Wow...first news I get from Meng Jon today was "Your MP3 was confiscated." I thought he was joking so i just ignore it but then later i heard T'ng Choong asking him who's MP3 is that and i just realize that it is real but what the heck? Is not a big deal and well i am not afraid at all. Why? I dont really give a damn bout the MP3. None of us (siblings) uses it for more than 3 months and so what the heck? Both my sis has MP3 phones therefore, they dont need that. And Meng Jon was like so scare or what i dont know and he went to find the teacher responsible for it or what-so-ever. I dont know...but all i know is the teacher's name is Mani (not Air Mani FYI) and she is one of the perfect teacher. Then when i was about to go to the toilet for um... you know what, i walked by her with Meng Jon and i because i was in a BIG pain, i didnt notice i passed by them and sigh...Meng Jon called me...and oh gosh...the pain and there she is mumbling and mumbling. Then some minutes that feels like eternity to me ended and gosh...what a luck. The janitors are cleaning the toilet so...ouch...endure endure endure...some time like 30 minutes or so (after gastric juice), i go again and yay! Is available now.
Wow... D-Phobia was like as if discriminated from us during Chemistry period. I dont really wanna explain that so...as a conclusion, i will skip this part. I dont really wanna mention bout D-Phobia. Okay ring!!! Recess...i aint gonna eat anything. So, just a cup of milo drink will do. Then to the Resource Room. As usual Kheng Joo (um...they adress him as a retard which is a bad thing. But sometimes, what he did is so humourous.) is there and this time, he's asking the people whom he doesnt know for email adress just to somehow fill up his friendster thingie. I dont know what's so great bout it. Oh what the heck. I dont give a damn anyway. Then Deepak. The worst person i ever met. 50 times worse than D-Phobia. I'll just call him the worst of the bad's worse's worst's worst. If you get what i mean of course. Let me tell you what he did in the way of dialogue.
Deepak: William. (slap himself)
Me: (Ignore)
Deepak: William. (slap himself)
Me: What? (annoyed)
Deepak: Hey, i heard that the girl [whom she assume that the girl is crazy and always gossiping to everyone about her whenever he sees her] also read the same book you read. Why dont you go and have a conversation with her?
Me: So? That's none of my business! (annoyed)
Deepak: What is he saying? (looking at his friend Er Win...i dont know how to spell his name. But i adress him as Ew Win)
Ew Win: Dont know.
Me: (repeat)
Deepak: Is he talking English?
Me: Yeah...oh no...im speaking Japs. (sacarsm)
Deepak: Hahahha... (sacarsm)
What he said then is totally none of my business although they are talking bout me. Well why wanna care? He will get it once he gets to the adult world so i'll let experiance itself punish him.
At home. Tired...played games and half way, mom ask me to take care of Darren, my lil' cousin. First, his diapers somehow exploded and therefore, he's partially naked. No is not top. Is below. My mom wanna take him to bath after she finished mopping the floor and i have to babysit him for that period. Back concentrating on my game...then...what is that smell??? Smells like shit. I stare at him and OH MY GOSH!!! Shit on the floor!!! Not a little but much! He stepped on it and argh!!! The smell...i started to choke cause i dont like these smell. Who likes them anyway (sacarsm)? Then he started stamping his feet on the floor cause he's a clean freak and the shit on his leg makes him feel annoyed too. And argh!!! His feet kicked my feet and wowziez...SHIT ON MY LEGS!!! I started to shout at my mom at the top of my lungs and my mom rush came in laughing. CLeaned and after a few hours, i found out that there's still a bit of his waste at my legs. Cleaned and done. That all for today.
Komenasai...
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
Do you feel happy today?
This post is today's while the previous post is yesterday's.
‘I feel so happy today'. That's what Marcus said. He's my class monitor and also some sort can say like um...??? Good going friend??? Well although we just some sort like know each other this year, but our frenship goes along very well. He's kinda um??? Funny guy i might say and oh yeah...he likes to annoy me too but oh well...friends are meant to annoy each other sometimes right? To me, he's a happy go lucky person and friendly speaking, if both of us has the chance, we would like to exchange our body, partially. Why? I like his arms and hands and he likes mine. Well why i said so? Cause my fingernails is actually longer than my um...fingertips or something like that...i dont really know how to put up these words but all i know is i can't really pinch anyone cause my fingernails is very short. While my hands are not furry/hairy his hand is. Well just a bit. I like it. I like it very much and i also like his hands of course. His arms is basically the opposite of mine.
Oh yeah...there's this anime currently showing on Astro's Animax entitled Yu Yu Hakusho. Im actually watching it although i know that the anime is damn outdated. I even has the whole series of it. I watch it on Animax cause mine's subtitle is in Chinese and i cant change that stupid subtitle nor the language which is in Japs. Oh yeah...Gensoumaden Saiyuki Reload is on ^-^ and im watching it. Is also on Animax and i watched it before but Goku. I like him a lot... ^-^
FYI G.S.R. is on 1530 while Yu Yu Hakusho is on 1800 and the repeat is on 0000 and on Sundays i guess. I don't know bout G.S.R though. Oh yeah....all the time are on GMT+8.00.
Daniel Lim… Is not that I wanna criticize him but he's really very super hyper major BUSY BODY!!! Why? Lemme see...ah... 'I know all the latest gossips'. That’s what he told me. What the heck? Never mind if he's a guy but...why does he wanna know about other's business? Why can't he just sit down there quietly and talk what's necessary? Why does he wanna know what other people is doing? Why he wanna break people's privacy just like paparazzi? Is not my problem of course but he’s over. Is okay if he keep the so-called gossips to himself but…he’s spreading the news to every single life form he talks to.
Oh yeah…that Mohana also…sigh…doesn’t know how to ‘prepare’ when he’s near. Mohana is my best friend and he’s an Indian but we go along very well. He knows everything bout me and vice versa. He logged into his gmail and that Daniel was standing behind him and he just let him see everything. Basically there’s nothing wrong with it right? But the person is DANIEL!!! And well…he (Daniel) saw something that he shouldn’t be looking at. Oh what the heck. Is none of my business but that’s my best friend and of course I told him. That makes him log off his email ASAP and wow…what a relief. Oh by the way. I think I got a phobia called D-phobia. I started to evade him and well…there’s a rumour he’s a GAY! That’s what makes me scared and I don’t know if im too sensitive but I notice that he kept looking at me! That gives me creep.
Why I say that he’s a gay? His friend, Ma Vin, I don’t know if he is his best friend is um…very gentle I should say. I guess you got what I meant by gentle right? I got this rumour from one of my friend whom I will not name him here. He told me that this Ma Vin spied on someone else’s PENIS on the toilet! Sigh…is not that I discriminate them but is just that I don’t want him (Daniel) to like/love/ whatever me. He…haihz…speechless…too many things that makes me scares of him. Oh yeah…he’s very rude too. Or maybe it’s me who think he is. Why? He tends to borrow my correction pen often and always without asking and just use it without even a word thank you. Even my other friends know how to ask and thank me but why doesn’t he? I’m not close to him at all. So far, I saw that he did this to me and Nazrin. Same case of course. But obviously I hate it very much. I guess that’s all for now.
Quote ==> Watashi mamoru kenshi.
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Stranded
Today, I decided to start anew in this blog. Since my last one is more than 'should' be published. At school was such a damn boring day...i guess i miss Nazrin. Well he's quite good to me and both of us go really well...as friend of course. Today the SPM trial was still on so...no assembly and I had to sit in the class like a stupid person starring into the blank. After the incident (you dont need to know what) , i with Edward still doesnt talk. Well at least a bit maybe but i dont really wanna say sorry cause i know im wrong but so is he. Everyone makes mistakes and maybe is because im too naive to trust him 100%. Well whatever... I just found out im a very boring/dull person. Why? Cause i dont go around my class and talk to anyone. I only talk to the ones whom i wanna talk to...i usually only talk to Nazrin then Meng Jon and T'ng Choong. I used to talk to Edward very very much but....haihz...what done is done. Nazrin and T'ng Choong was not here so, yep u guessed it...im super bored. I tried to talk to Eric and others but i just can't find a suitable topic and i just got nothing to talk with them.
During EST i forgot to finish the essay Saw gave us and viola, 2 demerits. Im just wondering, whenever we did something for teacher, do we get merits? No. Then is it fair that there is so many demerits and i think i'll use the word NEVER merit us. Oh what the heck, i dont give a damn. But at least one good thing is that Kelvin Lim did not bother me today. Well at least a bit... im so glad he sat beside Meng Jon but in the same time im pity of him too.
Okay i know most of you will be asking what's wrong with Kelvin? Basically there's nothing wrong but he's kinda weird. He'll go around and starting 'Are you a gay' or 'Do u like me' or 'U look so cute' and stuffs.
Sometimes, this guy will also go around touching people and oh my gawd...i hate it...MASSAGE. He always ask people to massage and what's wrong with him? Once i massaged him and he get over and over starting to touch me here and there (no private part FYI) then tickle my butt and hug me. Im not the kind of person who likes to fight or you may call me a chicken or what so ever but i dont give a damn. Then Kenshi (just a nickname for someone) was there just somewhere near me. So...it left me with no choice but to scold him a bit. And i told him if he did not stop i will sit somewhere else. With that he stop disturbing me. I tell him like that cause i got some info that he likes me. I dont really believe it and i have a big doubt bout it until now but i wanna do things step by step before i start my investigation.One mistake is too much. I cant afford to make another one.
Back to my story. Then he started to disturb Meng Jon and i can see how annoying he is. Since Meng Jon is the 2nd person i tell everything to, so he knows bout Kelvin too and he too have a big doubt that he's...lets just say G allrite? Then i made a stupid joke and told Meng Jon, 'Im glad but im pity of u'. He dont really got it and i told him i'll explain to him later. After that, i heard Kelvin say "he hate me is it?". I just ignore what he said and brushes off to my work.
Is maths time! Well im getting hang of it on Mr.Khor Boon Teik and i found out actually he's a very nice teacher. Just that he's a bit over sacarstic and he laughs at his own jokes. His quote, 'You think you know but actually you dont know'. Hahaz....i found it hillarious and what a coincidence. Today at Star Newspaper (one of my country's newspaper), has a story that matches his quote and there he go again. He read us the stupid story and told us that the moral value of the story is...his quote.
Then during his lesson, i did the most embarressing thing. The topic was on Transformation and it was last 2 years work and he's just revising with us. The question is so damn easy but i just cant do it. Why??? I was sleep learning and suddenly he just call me out and i was damn blurry and did wrongly many times. And sigh...the whole class was looking at me and oh my god...im walking like a zombie. Imagine how a zombie walks and thats me :) but at least KBT knows my daily habits. I usually sleep at his class a while like 5 to 10 minutes and he wont scold me cause he knows me. Im glad :) FYI the time i did the question was usually the time im bout to sleep. I think he understands and therefore, he did not give any comments.
Last touche...watashi mamoru kenshi.
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During EST i forgot to finish the essay Saw gave us and viola, 2 demerits. Im just wondering, whenever we did something for teacher, do we get merits? No. Then is it fair that there is so many demerits and i think i'll use the word NEVER merit us. Oh what the heck, i dont give a damn. But at least one good thing is that Kelvin Lim did not bother me today. Well at least a bit... im so glad he sat beside Meng Jon but in the same time im pity of him too.
Okay i know most of you will be asking what's wrong with Kelvin? Basically there's nothing wrong but he's kinda weird. He'll go around and starting 'Are you a gay' or 'Do u like me' or 'U look so cute' and stuffs.
Sometimes, this guy will also go around touching people and oh my gawd...i hate it...MASSAGE. He always ask people to massage and what's wrong with him? Once i massaged him and he get over and over starting to touch me here and there (no private part FYI) then tickle my butt and hug me. Im not the kind of person who likes to fight or you may call me a chicken or what so ever but i dont give a damn. Then Kenshi (just a nickname for someone) was there just somewhere near me. So...it left me with no choice but to scold him a bit. And i told him if he did not stop i will sit somewhere else. With that he stop disturbing me. I tell him like that cause i got some info that he likes me. I dont really believe it and i have a big doubt bout it until now but i wanna do things step by step before i start my investigation.One mistake is too much. I cant afford to make another one.
Back to my story. Then he started to disturb Meng Jon and i can see how annoying he is. Since Meng Jon is the 2nd person i tell everything to, so he knows bout Kelvin too and he too have a big doubt that he's...lets just say G allrite? Then i made a stupid joke and told Meng Jon, 'Im glad but im pity of u'. He dont really got it and i told him i'll explain to him later. After that, i heard Kelvin say "he hate me is it?". I just ignore what he said and brushes off to my work.
Is maths time! Well im getting hang of it on Mr.Khor Boon Teik and i found out actually he's a very nice teacher. Just that he's a bit over sacarstic and he laughs at his own jokes. His quote, 'You think you know but actually you dont know'. Hahaz....i found it hillarious and what a coincidence. Today at Star Newspaper (one of my country's newspaper), has a story that matches his quote and there he go again. He read us the stupid story and told us that the moral value of the story is...his quote.
Then during his lesson, i did the most embarressing thing. The topic was on Transformation and it was last 2 years work and he's just revising with us. The question is so damn easy but i just cant do it. Why??? I was sleep learning and suddenly he just call me out and i was damn blurry and did wrongly many times. And sigh...the whole class was looking at me and oh my god...im walking like a zombie. Imagine how a zombie walks and thats me :) but at least KBT knows my daily habits. I usually sleep at his class a while like 5 to 10 minutes and he wont scold me cause he knows me. Im glad :) FYI the time i did the question was usually the time im bout to sleep. I think he understands and therefore, he did not give any comments.
Last touche...watashi mamoru kenshi.
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