Sports Day.

I woke up early and sigh...go to school at 1000 Hrs. We were suppose to do last training for our Sport House Marching, mine is Pinhorn. But then, they weather turns bad. It rains till like nearly 1300 Hrs. The Sports Day event is starting at 1400 Hrs so, we kinda cant do the training. I was really nervous by then but i try my best to stay calm. Whenever i get nervous, my stomach tends to swirl and swirl and eventually, P U K E. When it's time for us to put up our performance/marching, i tried my best to stay calm and i dont dare to look at the spectators. And it works!!! :D I did my best and i only did one fatal error. And it's not really my error either cause i cant hear the commander's command so, i just kinda stop there for a while with another guy beside me before both of us make some move. Then after the performance, my house captain, Jen Sern told us we did a great job and tada...all of us were satisfied.

After that, me and Edward walk around the school and get some free lunch from our respective houses. A burger which is kinda nice. :D We walk walk walk walk and walk then i decided to take my camera to snap some pics. That's when i found out i took the wrong memory card from Mei Yin. Sigh...i only manage to capture a few. Kinda dissapointed. But then, at least band put up quite a performance :D Many things happened actually but i dont think i need to elaborate it here. Anyway, thanks to Edward so many things happened. You're such a great friend Edward. :D


Me :D


Marcus and his urm??? Wud da heck??? Anak buah...

PFS Band. DM, Yik Sean. Dont really know if the pronunciation is correct or not.

Sorrow, Depressed, Jealous.

Met you yesterday as i see you smile,
Feeling hard as i can't see you,
Just know you from yesterday,
And i know i will always gay.

Your smile makes me melt,
As the love for you i felt,
Your shyness makes me guilt,
Cause the love i know will be gone.

But as i don't know; what will your answer be,
As i see you only once i see,
I hope my feeling will you accept,
As i know you may not accept.

I hope i can appeal my feeling to you someday,
I hope you will accept my love,
But,
What will you say to me?

Copyright. Cronos Renzokuzen Chaos original copy.

I was just hit by a BIG boulder of STONE when i saw a picture of my crush/love with someone else. It's kind of a normal picture and probably they're not in a relationship. That's what i hope of course. I really don't know what to do and what i can do. The news hit me and crushed me straight onto the ground, flattened. I never posted any poems of mine to everyone to read but it's really something that hit and breaks my heart so hard that i can even 'feel' it shattered. That's why i used this poem to release my tension. Poems had been my friend since the olden days and i used to write a lot of poem. I even made a very nice poem for her but then...i lost it. Using her name, i created a so called PERFECT poem by me. Anyway, i checked the person who took the pic with her and it came out that maybe nothing was wrong. I dont know if she loves me or not but i really wanna express my feeling to her and for once i will tell to all of you that i flirt a lot but my heart is still with her. She know that i love her but then, sigh...i got no comment anymore.

I LOVE YOU, Circe I REALLY DO...

Where am I? Why am I?

Well, where'd I go all these while? Why i did not post anything for such a looooong time? Easy, busy and kinda lazy :p I need to make some studies and cope with my school life. My love life had turned back to normal, or what i guess 'normal' would be. School exam is near and sigh...i havent even do any revision, yet. At least during this period, i learnt that i still love who i love and she still love me. So, that's one good thing. The second good thing is, conflicts between me and well, my cousin ended. But something bad happened. It seems that my secrets got out of hand and was spread around. Someone whom i trust my secrets with eventually backfire and either him or his mate has that kind of big mouth and blab it out. Sigh...it's my fault too but i am really disappointed with him.

This taught me to have a 'BIGGER' eye when communicating with someone. I'm a slow learner i guess. Well, at least i made some kind of nice friends this year. I dont know if i am anti-social or sort but i am proud to have Edward, Matthew and Nazrin. That's all i need i guess. I've seen many others who have many friends but do they have friends that will accompany you all the time or so? No, i dont think so. When they are in group, one tends to get neglected and then, poof, you're alone and you don't even know when it happened. Me, Matt, Ed and Nazrin were different. Matt and Ed had been best friends like...i dont know. Form 1 maybe. While i joined them later last year. I met Nazrin too last year. I dont know what to say but i definitely appreciate our friendship and i really hope that it will not stop after our school life in PFS ended.