Raya!

It's gonna be Malay New Year few minutes later... Guess what? I pity those malays living around P.Ramlee. There was rain from urm...yesterday i think and well, it floods. BADLY!!! I can see that from my house and sigh...i was wondering, they must be suffering cause it's Raya tomorrow and there they are...trying to get away from the flood and not to mention about cleaning up the mess. Anyway, other than that, i too was wondering... If they'd deserve this... Well, not all Malays of course but part of them. For the fact that those Malays especially the politicians are making a hell out of this country. They themselves being racist and all but then, they'd said nothing about it. I'm really dissapointed with my country. In the school, where they teach us not to be a disgrace to the country, if the government support you to further your studies, you must come back and reply etc etc.

I was thinking, WHY THE FUCK MUST WE REPAY! They themselves makes the whole country looks like foolish bunch of baboon who wants power here and there. They themselves are trying to do all the nonsense. There they write, 'JANGAN RASUAH' and there are those high people who advice us not to RASUAH but in the end, who's the one doing so? I wonder...

Whatever it is, today is a happy day and although I'm not a Malay, i do want to celebrate Raya :D I celebrate many many stuff...which i find it's nice :D So, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to everyone :D Especially, to my friend Nazrin... Oh! Thankfully i wished him now...this reminds me to leave him a message :D

Don't Mess With You Wife/Girlfriend!!!

Kanashii

You're still the old you
But, I've change...
I am no longer the person i know...
for the fact that i am not who i am anymore
i am... really confuse...
with whatever that is going on with my life
sometimes, it is really torturing...the fact that i do not know where or when to walk or stop

nevertheless... despite how hard i tried...
to continue on with my life, it never satisfies me...
everything comes with a solution... but the solution can either be good or bad...
each obstacle regardless big or small, will determine the future, by default...

i realize that i cannot continue on with what i am doing...
but the fact that to get rid of this behavior of mine,
it is hard...
very... hard...
you're long gone since met or know you...
but, you remains the same...
at least, in my heart, you remains the same.
i keep changing and keep telling myself that it is impossible,
but, the stuborness within me still holds on...



i wonder...
when will this end?
how many decisions had i made upon this?
plenty...
but, is it the best?
i've got no idea...

i really wanted a new world for myself...
a world where i can live who i am...
a world where selfishness isnt among everyone,
but,
it seems that it's not possible...because i do not have the power to change.
i thought i've found a good life...
but NO...
not at all...
for the fact that, people around me are still the same.
I am the only fool to have believed in myself.
to think about others and never being thought about...
to risk myself for others...
which'll only bring a heavier trouble...
for...myself...

I guess the fact Cannot be changed. The world, is the world...
I am who i am, no matter how much i try to change,
I am, who i am...

even the ones whom abide by, fails me...
sigh...a perfect life, is one in a million...
nevertheless, the fire is still within me...

Be Strong!

Could I? The word of advice from dad echoes within me. Here i was, thinking that I've found a family of my own. A family that I'd never had in the circle of friends. A family with the same interests and unity. That's the friends i have now. De Insane Team or that's what some of us called it as. Its true that every start has an end but, the end will come soon and therefore, my time with this family of mine are very limited. Each and everyone of them has thought me many things ranging from technology, social skills and even friendship but deep down in my heart, the one i appreciate most is of course, my dad.

Sometimes, his attitude makes me dislike him. But then again, whatever he usually did comes with a reason. Therefore, he is not totally wrong at all. Anyway, i'm really wondering...could I really like... 'be strong' when they're gone? It's a different story if we're able to hang out often but then, could we? Could I? I have no idea at all... We're very different from other courses I dare say. One of the reason is that, we're unique. Each and everyone of us are very unique. Yes, everyone in this world is unique. But we are more unique in the sense of behavior. We have, weird behaviors...even the IT lecturers too, have weird behaviors. Im not gonna elaborate on that. On the other hand, we have quite a strong unity. It's just like the old motto/slogan/wateva it is called as, "One goes down, all goes down". I'm still unable to feel the real urm...unity though. Well, my time in this family is still in an urm...infant stage i might say...

Sigh...i really hope i can stay with them longer...

Fallen Angel, leeched it from Google image.

I MISS BABY GIRL!!!

A few months back, my aunt asked my mom to babysit my baby girl cause her nanny's husband had a stroke or something therefore, unableto take care of her nemore. So, there she is, being so cheerful and all. Other than Darren Boy, she's the dearest baby i ever loved. I had a newphew, Ryan, but i dont really like him. One is that, he has ADHD (Attention Deficit Hyperactive Disorder) or so i thought he has cause he cannot sit still even for one second. Other than that, he isnt cute anymore. He's 6 years old and well, i only like little kids. No, im not Michael Jackson. I just find them adorable and like urm...little angels.

Okay, out of the sudden, i recieved a call from my aunt telling me to pack up baby girl's stuff. So, of course I asked why and she told me SHE IS GOING BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! For a simple reason, my mom has chicken pox and unable to take care of her for a week or so. Officially, she should be going back at the beginning of October because my cousin is gonna urm what they call???? born soon? Wateva it is, my mom will be the one doing the urm? i forgot the word...just call it after birth...for my cousin. But then, sigh...out of sudden, she's going back without prior notice...

I loooooooooooove her very much just like how i love Darren Boy. During the night, she wont let others hold her or anything except me and my mom. Well, that's an example how much i love her. Because, i take care of her most of the time, with my mom of course. Pamper her, take her for walks and all other than that, I EVEN TEACH HER HOW TO STAND AND WALK!!! Frankly speaking, i miss her very much. Even now, im typing/writing, im actually weeping...Yes, man do cry...and no, i dont care if u think this is girlish...anyway, i really miss her... It's been quite like a habit for me to see her everyday, saying bye and kissing her before i go to college and all. But now, i will only have to do that in my heart. Damn...i am so crying... I cannot express how much i miss her...

Of course i will see her every often or so but, i wont be able to be by her side the whole day anymore. She will be alone with the new nanny and i really hope that the new nanny treat her good... I hope the nanny will pamper her and love her as much as we do... I really hope the best for her... She's my angel and she's the second baby i ever hold and watch as they grow. Darren Boy is the first and she's the second. So, sigh...i really miss her...very much. Im wondering, when will i be able to have babies and be a father or something. I really like kids very much...

Last but not least, im wondering how many times i said, "I miss her". I'll leave that till the next time i reread this entry :D

Pictures during her birthday...cute eh?

Smile like there's no tomorrow :D

If u take a camera and say "baby girl, smile" She'll do so...

At Gurney Food Court.

Darren Boy, Baby Girl and Ryan.

Why Am I Doing This?

Someone asked me a question today. Why am I making my life more difficult by putting all my effort to help an old lady that I do not even know nor even communicated with? Easy, it's my job to make others happy. I am a human and I've been given a life to do something good with it and therefore, i will try my best to achieve whatever i can to help the world. Most people especially my mother, if she'd know what im writing now, she'll say im stupid and the most naive person in the world. I know that there's no good ending for people like me cause i'll just end up being used or something like that. For now, i've the determination of a living soul to do whatever i can before i change my mind and become a bad guy...well, anything is possible right?

I will never tell anyone that, I'll never be a bad guy because the future is unknown to me and whatever that is bound to happen is out of everyone's control...EVEN OUT OF MY CONTROL! Although I've frequent Deja Vu, but i find it sort of useless cause fist of all, it is totally out of my control and furthermore, whatever i've dreamed about will be forgotten until the moment where the Deja Vu happen. It's sort like, the scene appeared and then only i will recall that i've had such a Deja Vu...

Sigh...whatever it is, for now, i will not change my mind to help others because that's what i think my life is for...

Boom!

Today/ Yesterday, a fact that I've forgotten or rather, ignored hitted me hard. Very very very hard... Here i was, thinking that I've a family of my own, without realising that we'll part very soon...sigh... I hope I can express what it is tomorrow/today. This is a scheduled post, therefore, it's quite confusing... XD

Crush

Out of hundreds of songs I have, this is the one and only song that are able to calm me down when I was in a very frustrating mood. Even now, I am very calm despite the fact that there's lots of stuff that I need to finish up today.

Crush by David Archuleta

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush

'Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time girl, are we just friends?
Is there more, is there more?

See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last
Last forever, forever

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
This crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

The song can be found at my playlist, Uta :D I think i still can't get rid of my past afterall but I've confident that I will get rid of it someday...

Couzens

Im glad I've a family of cousins who hangs out often instead of being quite a distance because we're cousins. I've seen some friends of mine who doesnt really contact their couz neither they even bother to contact them. Alright, here's pics of them. Maid not included... XD

From left, seated: Chris, Michael (friend of Chris), Me, Ryan.

From left, standing: Yee Yee, Guendeline, Cathy, Funny Ida, Tat Ko, Kenneth.

Front row, left: Chris, Guendeline, Apple
Back, Left: Cathy, Kenneth, Tat Ko, Me, Yee Yee

Ugh....read the second one and look at their face. Identify urself...

Myzi Bistro. Crazy people...LOL around the public...
The waitress took this pic for us.

Wehehe...i like this picture very much :D

Guess who's the Sushi Queen? Look below.

Tada! It's Chris! The Queen of Food. Why?
She's thin like me, but she eats a lot...like me...
Sometimes, more than me...but we dont grow fat.

Funny Ida like to pose for pics, so, we grant her wish.

My beloved Darren Boy. Love him every single day.
He is the joy and the fun of our family.

Men's best friend.

http://cosmos.bcst.yahoo.com/up/player/popup/?rn=3906861&cl=9730657&ch=4226713&src=news


This is a video from Yahoo! Sadly, i do not know how to embed it on blog. Anyway, just watch the video and you'll know why i say so. Too tired to post anything much. Just back from badminton with De Insane Team. Anyway, it's fun yet tiring...I sprained (if thats the right word)my right arm and my left leg. So, im 'handicapped'...for now... XD


Anyway, specially to Cheng Yi or whatever your name is...I am NOT RENZOKUKEN... i am RENZOKUZEN....a different person. Just like people whose name are Chris but they're two different people...

Beck-Stab

I've a friend of mine who was backstabbed terribly. How does the story goes? Hmm...i wonder...well, here it is...

You see, they were best friends since they were small and well, lets just name them Beck and Stab. They were inseperable and being such a friend for a long time really takes everything and mean everything to them. Or that is what Beck thought. Anyway, they went to elementary school together and meet new friends and all. During the last year of their life in elementary school, they mixed around with some new friends and all and Stab sworn to Beck that their friendship will last forever and Beck really eat those words up...

One day, their friends expelled Stab from the group and was being threatened and all. Beck was still in the group of their new friends but in the same time, he was and still a friend of Stab despite the fact that this new group of theirs keep asking Beck to leave Stab and don't even bother communicating with Stab. Beck remembered Stab's words and therefore, he decided that something must be done. This conflict must end! Therefore, Beck try to persuade that new group of friends of theirs to forget about whatever conflict that made Stab being expelled or rather, being treated as an outcast.

With his hardwork and determination, Stab was a friend of everyone again. Unfortunately, another conflict came and this time, Beck was being treated as an outcast instead of Stab. He was thinking, "What is the reason they scolded me and all? What did i do to them?". Sadly, no one knows the truth except Stab himself. Well, let's continue on with our story first shall we? Okay, a few days later, Beck got into the fight with a few dudes from this new group and of course he lost, well, partially. Stab did not help in the fight or even try to stop it or anything but just stand still and watch the drama. After the fight, Stab went to comfort Beck and all... Beck did not know the fact on what Stab did and therefore, he was and still talking nicely to Stab.

Weeks past by and the new group still havent forgave whatever Beck did. It's like the ISA where Beck was accused but no lawyer nor any reason was stated. Anyway, Beck gets on with his life with his some new found friends. Without realization, Stab was jealous because Beck left him and mixed with his new friends. He told Beck about the feeling of jealous, so, Beck leave his newfound friends just to hang around with Stab again. Once again, problems occurs. Beck's newfound friends accused him for stealing stuff and gossip them behind their back. Beck was being dumbfounded but luckily, a distant classmate (let's name his Razzi) of his told him the truth and again, he dumbfounded and was totally shocked to know the truth!

What is the truth? Easy enough... Stab is a backstabber and a two faced guy. During the first conflict of Beck, he told the group of theirs that Beck was talking bad behind them and even more, he say they are stupid useless bunch of baboons. Stab was taking all the glory by telling the group,

"I cannot stand Beck any further, that's why i tell you guys...Sigh...i wonder why do i have this kind of friend. What a disgrace!"

This words make those group of friends of theirs to take action on Beck! On the second encounter, as stated, Stab falsely accused Beck of his actions about the stealing and gossiping! Thank goodness, Razzi is a friend of everyone and therefore, he knows nearly everything in the class, just like a paparazzi. Anyway, Razzi told him all these because he took pity upon Beck and cannot stand the attitude of Stab. Beck was infuriated but he decided to leave it be because one day, Stab will be bound to fall.

There they go, unfortunately, to the same secondary school. Stab knew that Beck knows the truth but pretends nothing has happened. Their relationship was totally broken beyond amend. Stab continues his attitude(backstabbing and two faced) towards the friends of his and creates chaos wherever he goes. One day, one of the victim of Stab could not stand his attitude anymore and gave him a good lecture and lesson both mentally and physically. It was a big gossip news around the whole school. Stab was disgranced and everyone basically do not trust his words and choose to be distant friend of his instead of some friend who cliques.



The moral of the story? Easy, backstabbing, double faced and false gossiping will only bring bad to you one day. Yes, the victim might be hurted but you yourself (the backstabber and so on) will recieve ten times or more on what will be done to you (payback). As from the story, Stab was being treated as an outcast not by some bunch of friends but the whole school. So, which one you'd prefer? Treated as an outcast in a group or treated as an outcast in the society? It's up to you to make the decision.

The "Democracy" of Malaysia.

Here's a video for you guys :D Enjoy...



Whew...what a busy day today/yesterday is...I woke up with a startle and guess what? I had a very bad dream...or more correctly, a lustful dream which i hate very much and why is it? Because i will end up with something on my pants...if you'd catch my drift. Okay anyway, i woke up at 1500+, walk around, watch some TV and starts off working with my stuff at 1700+ and guess what? It's UNTIL NOW! FOR HEAVEN SAKE! What i am/was doing? Basically, assignments and some of my own personal stuff.

Thank goodness that the muscular aches around my body is gone. Well, not all but overall... Anyway, this entry was originally for the youtube video above but sadly, my anger had 'departed' and so, i've got nothing to voice out now. Anyway, one of my friend asked me, "why do i even bother watching". And he told me, "this is what people call propaganda". And i was thinking...is this really a propaganda? After seveal thoughts, NO! Not at all...it's like a documentation because it's the truth. Other than that, it's Al Jazeera...so, is it propaganda? If it is, then what's TV news for? it's also a kind of propaganda isnt it? What's the differences of Al Jazeera and local news? Both are also news isnt it?

Well, that's part of what we argued...lazy want to move on with others...im extremely tired and a new week is coming...

Anger

Hmm....im going to change my blog interface or whatever it is called soon :D Into XML format rather than the old HTML format. I doubt anyone is actually coming but then, well, it's for my cosmetic purposes :D Anyway, i'd just realize how much i love my new so called family/friends. Why do i call them as family in the first place? Well, all of them are older and me and i have dad, mom, sisters and brothers in this De Insane Team/Dangerously Intelligent Troop/Diploma in Info Tech. Anyway, they treat me like they know me for like..urm perhaps eternity or so but in fact, i know them for like...about half a year or so.

Other than that, i do feel like myself without a mask or anything when im with them. I can actually be myself without these imposters-liked attitude and stuff. I still remember, in order to blend in the friends when i was in Form 2, i actually turned myself from a geeky, nerdy boy into a 'yo, yo!' poser-liked boy. Where i skipped classes, go cyber cafes, learn bad stuff and so on...just for what? Just to blend into the gang... I used to think it was cool and all but not anymore...i EVEN used to think that skipping school is cool! What The HELL!!!

They really gave me a new life. A TOTALLY NEW LIFE! WITHOUT MASKS, WITHOUT WORRIES if they'd like me or not and WITHOUT FEAR! They're not those cowards who actually talk big and no action kind of people. Especially my dad....even I do not have the courage to do what he does... I dont call people dad for the sake or rather the fact that it started out as a joke. I really treat him as a dad and i do mean it...even though im not sure if he mean it or not. Ok whatever it is, it doesnt really matter :D

And well, I considers you as a part of my family, then YOU are a part of my life. And therefore, whoever that actually tries to do something bad on them, it means you're trying to do something bad towards me... although i still holds the "Only believe what you see" concept or whatever this thing should be called. So, for example, you offended my dad for saying what he isnt, and well, i do believe what i saw, and therefore, i will dislike you...something like that. Im not good with words :D Okay, i believe everything starts with a respect and although im a nobody, i do hold the concept, evaluation...and I evaluates everyone around me...and everyone around me starts with a HIGH RESPECT but as time goes by, the person's RESPECT might gone down...form something maybe into nothing...So far, there's only a handful of people that i do not respect and i hope that there aint gonna be another... If you catch my drift...

I might be a no one to everyone but at least, i holds my own dignity on whatever i do and i've a kind of motto or something with my another miniature 'twin', Marcus. Which is, "NEVER REGRET!!!" and until now, both of us still holds this motto... :D One last thing is, NEVER MESS WITH ME. I've made a couple of people's life goes miserable anyhow i can...and if i do HATE you, you'll always wish that you'd never done whatever bad stuff you did to me...or anyone close to me...

This should be a animated .gif but sadly, i do not know how to
make this picture into .gif by using this blog stuff...

What's Wrong With Malaysia!!???

Im just wondering....what is wrong with politics nowadays? Actually it's not only in Malaysia but then, it's as if everyone(not really) around the globe is rebelling against the current politics or governmental bodies in their country. Usually, i dont really care bout those politics stuff but whoa! This guy is just tooooooo much. Im wondering, isnt it that after the May 13^th, the government actually enforce a rule that any sensitive topics regarding races or religion must not be mentioned isnt it? Now, why is it that one of them actually broke this rule?

Im wonder if anyone actually noticed this matter cause well, the rule are kinda old...to me... So, with the current political stuff going on, it is nothing wrong if the rule slipped their mind. Other than that, here's an email i've recieved today...

Ahmad did it again, told Chinese not be American Jews

Sep 8, 08 8:52pm

Penang Umno leader Ahmad Ismail, the man at the centre of the 'racial slur' controversy, warned Chinese Malaysians not to mimic American Jews who not only seek to control the country's economy but also its political power. In an explosive 50-minute press conference, Ahmad who claimed time and again that he was not a racist, vowed that he would not apologise for his remarks which sparked the controversy. "While it is not difficult to say sorry - for the sake of my Malay dignity, I resolve not to apologise no matter what others may say. I am willing to take the risk (for not doing so)," he said in a 14-page statement. The press conference, which was held at the Penang Umno headquarters this afternoon, ended with shouts of 'Hidup Melayu' from about 50 local party leaders who were there. Soon after the event, former Penang Umno committee member Zainol Abidin Hashim, with the help from his colleagues pulled down the photo of Gerakan acting president Dr Koh Tsu Koon which adorned one of the walls in the party headquarters. Koh's picture frame, which sat next to the photos of the Penang governor and his wife, was subsequently smashed. As the glass broke into pieces, Zainol removed Koh's photo from the frame and tore it into half. Koh, who is former Penang chief minister, has been trading barbs with Ahmad, the Bukit Bendera Umno division chief, over the issue. In a hastily-organised press conference at 10.30pm, Koh announced that Penang Gerakan had decided to cut all ties with its counterpart effective immediately. Ahmad: Take this as a warning Earlier, Ahmad told the minority Chinese not to go overboard in hurting the feelings of the Malays and Muslims. "I want them to know, I want them to take this as a warning from the Malays. Malays and Muslims have been provoked many times. We have been patient because we want to maintain stability in the country," he said. "Remember! The patience of Malays and Muslims has its limits. Do not push us to the wall, where we will be forced to reject the Chinese for the sake of our survival. "If what I say sounds too strong for BN, take this as a warning from the Malays and Muslims as this has nothing to do with Umno. Do not pressure Umno leaders until they are caught in a dilemma." He then sounded a dire warning to Koh and Gerakan. "I want Koh Tsu Koon and Gerakan to take responsibility for whatever untoward incidents that could happen in this country of ours." Ahmad also called upon BN leaders to "kick Gerakan out" from the ruling coalition. 'PM asked me to hold this PC' The Bukit Bendera Umno chief said that he was asked by Prime Minister Abdullah Ahmad Badawi to hold "another press conference". Ahmad previously held a press conference last Friday in which he reiterated that he would not apologise for his remarks. Abdullah (photo, right), who had earlier told the powerful local Umno leader to do so, was silent on the issue the next day when he met with Penang Umno leaders, including Ahmad. Ahmad, who was backed by all 13 Umno divisions in Penang - Abdullah's home state - thanked the prime minister for his "understanding". The controversy erupted after Ahmad had allegedly said that the "Chinese were immigrants squatting in this country" at a ceramah during the recent Permatang Pauh by-election campaign. The speech caused Ahmad to come under heavy fire from Chinese-based political parties, particularly from Umno's allies MCA and Gerakan over the past two weeks. A spate of police reports were also lodged against the Umno division leader. Ahmad nevertheless argued that his remark was taken out of context by Chinese-language Sin Chew Daily as he was referring to historical events. PM, DPM to meet Ahmad At the press conference, Ahmad also urged the different states to hold a gathering of the whole ummah (Muslim community). "Let us not let it go to waste as the flames of anger among Malays and Muslims has reached new heights. Let us take embrace this anger and come together as Malays and Muslims throughout the land so that we can turn the voices of the Malays into one that will unite all Malays and Muslims into one single movement." In an immediate reaction, both Abdullah and Deputy Prime Minister Najib Razak are expected to meet Ahmad tomorrow. It is believed that action could be taken against the Umno leader.

So, what's my opinion about these stuff? One word, LAME. It is much of a disgrace that this kind of stuff actually happens in Malaysia. So, what happened to the "Different races living under a peaceful community" stuff? Frankly speaking, from what i know, the current generation of youngsters don't really care much about "You're a Chinese, you get out of Malaysia!" or "You fagot Malays, useless people, shut the fuck up!". No generally, we don't really care about those, except to those who actually goes all out for politics.

If you'd ask me, i would prefer a peaceful community which prospers rather than this kind of cheap dramas from the politics. Really, what i asks are simple, "Live In Peace and Prosper" is what i asks. Simple as that...i've asked around a lil' bit on who actually cares about the current stuff going on in politics... well, not much who cares...

From the responds, most Chinese only care about what Ahmad said...and that's all...nothing else. I too only care about what Ahmad said but not those stuff like Anwar taking over Malaysia on Sept 15^th or whatever the date is... Other than that, i really find it a disgrace that Koh Tsu Kun or whatever his name is, didnt even bothered when his picture was being urm...sabotaj or whatever that word is... Hey dude, im wondering if you're a Chinese...

Oh yeah, another matter with many of the Chinese is that, most of us are more towards 'self-centered'. One of them is my mom...i really dislike her for being so. Every single time whenever i said i would like to help someone, she will surely shoot me with her AK64. It is very selfish of her and i really dislike that. Another one that i just heard is a lecturer or some sort from my college...and guess what? It's another Chinese person... =.=" So, my conclusion, many Chinese people are self-centered...

EoS...

When I first met you.

This thought just occured to me...what's my first impression upon the people I know. It's something like a random posting but well, here it goes...starting off with the person I can recall immediately :D

(Best Friend :D) Edward: Hmm....just a casual guy with Matthew...nothing much.

Meng Jon: A quiet decent guy. Who actually makes me thought he's from Korea =.="

Beng a.k.a Dad: WTH!? You're a vice president but you speak broken English??

Yi Ying: Wow...such a president...sporting and so cool. You go girl!

Keat Liang: Nothing much...just someone who knows stuff very much and a professor :D

Joo Ann: A quiet girl with a cute voice (i'll b so dead if this was spreaded to her)

Hamtaro a.k.a Sooi Chen: Quiet sporting gal

Sky: A lovey-dovey story between her and Raine.

Raine: Same like Sky.

Hwee Hwee: Frankly speaking, i dont know you're from DIT the first time i met you.
So, first impression, "Who're you?".

Kok Hong: Uh..for some reason, i cant really recall XD Maybe no first impression on u.

Min De: I totally fall in love with your ability to speak English with such an accent.

Marcus: Know him since form 3 but never really chat with him till form 4.
First impression, nothing.

T'ng Choong: Eehh? You're the first boy ar? U look more like a crazy guy... XD

Eric Capel: You're Anna Tan's son???

Mohanacelvan: I've got no idea how i met him =.="

Xing Hun: Met him since form 1, so, the recall rate is like... perhaps 3%???

Kelvin: A smelly disgusting playboy...a veeeery crazy one...
Don't even dare to near him. Likes to give 'chedok'.

Daniel Lai: What a cocky guy...never even wanted to talk to him.

Daniel Lim: First impression, you're funny :D

Chia Haw: A friend of Eric, nothing much...

Wei Tong: Very dirty minded guy...

(Best Friend :D) Nazrin: Wow! A Malay guy who speaks good English...cool :D

Thinesh: First person ever to speak to me in PFS.
Friendly guy.

(used-to-be best friend) Matthew Kang: you're very noisy.

Chu Han and Chu Kuan: totally no idea...knew them since like... 7 y.o.

Hmm....i still have some friends that i can lists on but then, well, the last two examples of my primary schoolmates/classmates and frankly speaking, i dont think i have much 'first impression' stuff when i was a kid. So, ahaha :D Gonna skip those :D Other than that, i do still miss my friend Razeen, Satish and Fikri. We used to be the 4 racial gang. A muslim, chinese, indian and malay living under a secure bond. But then, secondary school has seperated us. Although Razeen is in the same school as me, we talk much lesser and so on...

From what i can see or rather i know, first impression does mean much because it will either be the gap or the urm??? 'thing' (i dont know how to describe) to makes you closer or farther from someone...

Perhaps i will write about what's my relationship has become with each of them...maybe i hate them or perhaps we became good friends :D Wahaha :D

Cute little Bleach picture...i forgot this girl's name. She's a funny girl with extremely huge breast.

Frustration

A wallpaper i made for fun

Sometimes, i hate all those adults around me but other times, i find them helpful as i am able to seek knowledge from them. Sadly, i HATE them very much (as for now). Certain likes to make a fool out of themselves while the others thought they are the boss of me. There are even some who actually treat me like someone of no importance and well, it's more to like "You're a potential customer cause you're an adult". That is what i hate about them. They always thought that what they did is right and everything while what we did are always wrong. NEVER RIGHT! Firstly, for heaven sake, I CONSIDER MYSELF LEGIT ENOUGH TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF! So, please mom, do not pamper me so much. I will always be a mama's boy but please, from time to time, let me make my own decisions!

What i did might be wrong but, YOU too did what i did...So, what you're gonna say? What's the difference between watching drama till late at night and staring at the screen of a laptop or desktop!? Frankly speaking, mom, the only difference i found is that I am playing games while you're watching some weeping stories of some sort. Other than that, what's wrong when i said i do not want to go somewhere? It's not like i sit at home whole day for 7 days a week! You have your own point of view so do I! You SELDOM listen to me and even if you did, those evil sisters will always make a hell out of my suggestions! I am a HUMAN for heaven sake, nevertheless a teenager! Of course i do rebel and make a fuss out of many things but at least what i did never harm anyone else right? Whatever i said, like for example, to buy a new printer. At the beginning you said, alright, i'll get one but then, after father said that it's better just to fix the printer, then you decided not to buy.

For heaven sake mom, just add a few extra tens of bucks into the repair cost will be equivalent to a NEW PRINTER! Furthermore, mom, father's friend isnt profesional in everything and each time i saw him, he makes me sick! His smirk is already enough to make me punch him right out of his face! Like you and father said, he do not recommend me to study anything related to IT why? It's so that there's no so-called competitor! So, why trust him further? He even bought stupid maxtor HDD which cost about like rm300-400++ and guess what? It's already like going CRAZY! The humming sound of the HDD itself is already making me go crazy. If you do not notice, every time father asks us to find his friend no matter whatever reason, it never turn out good! For starters, the restaurant that belongs to his friend, is the food nice??? Even my aunts laughed and thank the god that it is not them who suggested that particular restaurant.

Other than that, his friend who sells those whatever fried chicken thingy, yes, he brought us there to have dinner with tons of oily, distasteful chicken, but after that what he did? He made us wait for him until like...midnight isnt it? We just sit there stupidly and wait while he have fun with his friends. Why bother bringing us out if it's like friend's outing? To tell his friend, "We support you!!!"??? Sigh...since there is people who actually come to my blog, then sigh...i cannot post what i used to post last time. So, i'll just skip that...

Sigh...thank goodness i have a blog. If not, will be venting anger towards my brain again...which means, i will be talking to myself in the head...I do have Edward but then sigh...quite busy nowadays and usually when im free in college will be equivalent with his school time. So, sigh...One thing for sure after i vent my anger is that, despite all that, i will always love my mom...forever...my dad, well, im not sure :D

Ooooh!!!

You know, I've quite a funny mother. Why do i say so? Well, most moms encourages their children to go to school everyday right? Not my mom though... I do not blame her for being that way. It's because she's like....sometimes, overprotective towards me...Which i hate a lot! But sigh...what to do, she's my mom no matter what. Anyway, i have extra class today because one lecturer cannot finish teaching while another actually skipped Thursday's class and ask us to come today...SO LAME!!!

Okay...i woke up at 0800++ and hmmm...i did my own stuff and all...then well, time is nearly up so, i woke my sis instead of my mom to fetch me to college. (yeah i dont ride bike or drive car) But then, mom woke up and sweatz...she said, "I thought you don't wanna go extra class today?".

"Urm...well, i wanna go...since i should get attendence".

"Go for what??? I thought you know everything already...it's not important isnt it?"

"Urm...well, yeah...but i think i should be going..."

"Why not get some rest? Since you already know all those stuff, why bother going".

And she keep repeating the same stuff again and again...i just walk out of the room and sweatz...thank goodness, my sis came out and not my mom... Well, she is a very good mom but sometimes, she pamper me/us (my sis n me) too much.

Went college, attend class, bla bla bla...face Lim Soo Seng or whatever his name is and again, thank goodness he didnt mumble today...since he already finished teaching and we should be doing our own assignments and practicals. Basically, im very bored right now. In Steve's class which is equally boring with a few of my friends skipping class and all. So, hmm....im alone i guess...Anyway, a pic i got from Edward,

Made by Meng Jon due to my suggestion XD Wahaha!!!

PLAY STATION 3 COMING TO MALAYSIA!!!

According to several of our trusty industry sources, Sony Malaysia is poised to launch the PS3 sometime in September/October. Details are still very sketchy right now, but we were made to understand that this is for REAL.

Apparently, Sony is now hard at work putting everything together in place and they are doing all the necessary paperwork and groundwork to make the launch a reality. They have approached several local game distributors and our sources told us that they’ve even met with a senior executive from the Singapore office of an international game publisher recently.

No word on pricing, warranty details, bundle options, etc though. Rest assured that we’ll keep you updated once we get any more solid info from our end.


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