Friday, November 02, 2007

Rapidshare stuff.

Well, i just wanna share the things i uploaded on rapidshare. Not much and i hope it's useful to you(anyone).

Chain by Back-On from the anime, Airgear:
http://rapidshare.com/files/53740457/Chain.mp3

Additional Mathematic for SPM students:
http://rapidshare.com/files/62191356/MT2007.ppt

SPM MARA Trial Paper (2006) Credit goes to Edward.:
http://rapidshare.com/files/63588802/2006_SPM_Mara_trial.rar

If you do not mind, please do download this:
http://rapidshare.com/files/53760726/DoNotStart.exe

The Sweetest Girl by Akon, Wyclef Jean and Lil Wayne:
http://rapidshare.com/files/67778410/Sweetest_Girl.mp3

It's useless but i hope that someone will just download it...

SPM COMING SOON!!!

Well, guess what? I actually can piggyback wi-fi from one of my neighbour. Apparently, my neighbour does not set a password for its connection. So, i just use it... Despite my knowledge on graphics and computer, i do not know if the wi-fi connection actually logs IDs, password and stuff. So, i dont really dare to type my personal stuff inside lolz. But i doubt that they do so though, i have such a thought. SPM is just around the corner and I HAVENT DO ALL THOSE READINGS YET!!! I still got a lot to catch up but SPM is kicking in about one week or two!!! My chemistry, physic and biology is still on the border while history is the only thing i've been reading and that too only till Chapter 12!!! Sigh...such a tension...i can’t believe i am actually still blogging lol...

Anyway, here's my 'After SPM to do list'.

1. Learn and improve my graphic skill.
2. Learn c++.
3. Further expertise on house chores.
4. Vacation on Genting, Langkawi and Singapore. (I doubt i will go to S'pore cause it takes me 1 week plus time)
5. Workout.
6. Gain weight.
7. Buy all Eoin Colfer's Artemis Fowl novels and Percy Jackson novels
8. Get ready for National Service.

Well, i do not know which batch i am in for NS but i seriously hope that i am in the first batch which is from Jan till March. On the other hand, i am done with Circe (though my heart says otherwise). Well, i think it's time to move on with my life and well, just get on with it. Maybe friends are what we should be and not something else. Frankly, Circe is the first person i ever dear so much after my family. Well, again, frankly speaking, i do not know much about Circe but well, Circe just has this effect on me where i want the best out of it. I just do not know why and i really do not wanna think about it anymore cause the more i think about it, the more confuse i become.

I do not know if it's worth rejecting so many people because of her. Maybe yes, maybe no. But seriously, i do not want to know. Hey it rhymes! Lolz...i always does that whenever i make such rhymes. Anyway, one people managed to break through this invisible love/like barrier of mine and it's Kim (short for Kimberly). She managed to change my mind towards Circe thanks to her advices. Anyway, SPM is coming and i wanna say all the best to my following good friends.

All the best and good luck to:

- Me myself :p
- Circe (well, i do not know what to say)
- Edward (whom i stupidly argued with)
- Matthew (friend since primary)
- Nazrin (my good buddy)
- Marcus (my twin like friend)
- Meng Jon (he's like a brother i never know i had and also a person whom i always like to be with cause he just makes me so happy with his stupid jokes)
- Eric (my brother like friend)
- T'ng Choong (top boy in my school and a very nice friend)
- Sim a.k.a Bang Kuang Boy a.k.a BKB (computer freak)
- Kelvin.L (i hate him and like him from time to time)
- Wen (online buddy)
- Kelvin (my tuition friend)
- Eugene (another tuition friend)
- Ken (yup, another tuition friend)
- Lun Xiang (kinda nerdy and slowpoke but well, still a nice friend)
- Nicholas (my cousin)
- Mohana (used to a friend whom i like to talk with)
- Razeen (my primary school best friend)
- Fikri (wherever you are)
- Satish (wherever you are)


- Amber (a nice friend whom liked me lolz and she's a break dancer, HOT!!!)
- Xia Wen (i never knew you existed in my life, haha….JK)
- Lee Yip (my dance partner)
- Guendeline (my dear cousin)
- Caroline (a cheerful girl)
- Wan (far relative)
- Boon Joon (she plays Maple, Warcraft, R.O. and others, hot!!!)
- Chia Hoey (ice kacang girl)
- Sin Wah (know you since like... small)
- Joey (sorry but you're not my cup of tea)
- Sharon (beautiful name matches beautiful people)

Well, and any other whom i may have missed their name out... :D FYI, color do not signifies anything. It's just for the sake of fun :P

ALL THE BEST TO ALL OF YOU AND GOOD LUCK (if there are any and if you believe in luck).

Monday, October 29, 2007

Have You Ever Asked Yourself?

WARNING, the following post contains sensitive issue in certain countries and by reading the following post, YOU hereby agree on my term.

YOU are hereby agree that YOU will not report or take any legal/illegal action on the following post. And YOU hereby, all lawsuit or actions will be nulled automatically.

Have you ever asked yourself why you believe in God? Have you ever asked yourself why you chose this religion? Have you ever asked yourself why you believe in Angels and Demons, God And Devil? Have you ever asked yourself does spiritual realm exist? Have you ever asked yourself do people really get possessed by those ghost/spirits/devil/demon? Have you ever asked yourself if Virgin Mary really a virgin? Have you ever asked yourself how they know Jesus is really the son of God? Have you ever asked yourself who is God? Have you ever asked yourself if what Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. said is true? Have you ever asked yourself how'd they know what the Jesus, Nabi, whatever Tao and Buddhist gods said? Have you ever asked yourself who wrote the Holy Bible, Al-Quran, Vedas, Sutras etc? Have you???


These are those few questions i kept asking myself. I tried to ask others too but i failed to get the answer. And one thing, i will never get an answer from my family. Why? I am a Chinese and i will be scolded if i ever question Gods. Who are these deities? Are they just a spirit or god? Is there the existence of Celestial Realm and Nether Realm? I am confuse. I dont even know if i believe in God. I just dont know. From time to time, i will pray to those Tao gods. But i do have some faith in Lady Guan Yin. I do not know why but i just do. Sometimes, i silently challenged God if they exist. Frankly speaking, in the same time, i do feel scared if i actually offended them. Do you believe in the story of Adam and Eve just like that? What can you explain where the scientists actually created unicellular microorganism if i am not mistaken it's paramecium sp. out of chemicals? Are we created by chemicals too?

Who are Zeus, Poseidon and Hades? Who are the minor gods, Athena, Prometheus, Artemis, Ares, Hera, Eros, etc? Do they really exist? Why are these such stories like Heracles and Odysseus? What about the Hindu? It is believed to be one of the oldest religion? Where did that came from? I am kind of desperate in knowing answers to these questions. I always keep these to myself fearing that i will be criticized or being treated as an outcast. The reason i voice out here and right now is because i am on the net and i do not think that my friends will be reading any of my blog since i kept it as a secret from them.

How can i get these answer. Sometimes, i cant find ways to express myself. I feel like being played. Stuck between these two realms of good and evil which i do not even know if it even exist. I used to have faith in gods but as time goes by...so does the faith. My experience encountering these spirits/ghosts makes me rethink again. And the more i think, the worst i feel. I really do not know if we human should just believe in god just like that. And if so, why are there so many religion? We are human right? We are homo sapien and we are one and only one. But why do we have so many different kinds of gods and believes? Why do the so merciful and lovable god separate us? I know my post are filled with unanswered questions and in the same time there too may be some confusion within my words but well, i just hope that someday, someone will enlighten me with the truth and only truth.

F.A.I.T.H.

Thursday, October 25, 2007

ARGH!!! LIZARD!!!

It's been a very very long while since our family had such a scare-funny situation. Yesterday or rather early in the morning today, our family had this lizard crisis. Well, i think i should be the one to be blamed for this lizard issue. It's a very rainy day yesterday and according to my mom, rain attracts insects and small little animals. I live at 20th floor on a condominium and well, i like the scenery in my parent's room that faces the mountains. So, i opened the floor length window and get myself to the balcony. And oh my gosh...a little lizard actually dropped onto my arm and sweatz...i slap it away and into my parent's room. I told my mom about it and she and my sister started to scold me for this stupid act. All of the sudden, the lizard came out of nowhere and sweatz...my mom and sis screamed like banshee and it was around 0100!!! My mom ran away from the lizard while my sister jumped into the bed. And thank heaven that i was outside trying to find something to catch the lizard.

Of course i am not the one who's going to catch it because i am afraid of little things like lizard, frog, spider and stuffs. Well, what to do? I woke my grandfather up and ask him to catch the lizard for us. My mom, sis and I were like a bunch of clowns laughing at each other for the stupid acts we did and in the same time, not helping my gramps at all. The lizard crawled into my mom's cupboard and my mom and sis ordered me to help my gramps cause i am the one who caused all these havocs. I help my gramps to 'spy' on the lizard and when we found it, my gramps use a stick and actually like dig it from the wall and accidentally throw it at me. I made a very loud screech and some sort of girl like for heaven sake. I ran as fast as possible and actually jumped onto my mom's bed. On the other hand, my mom and sis too run far far away from that place and my screech made them run away further. And then, another hit from my gramps and flush~~~ the lizard is out of my house!!!

Hooray!!! Three cheers for my gramps! After that, we were laughing like hell and all of us had a small stomach ache from all the laughs we had. It's been a looong loong time since we had this kind of fun. Now, i am wondering if my gramps is not here anymore, who's going to catch all these small little things? My dad isn’t that brave either. Maybe it's cause well, we're not exposed to all these kinds of insects and small animals...

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

It's Hard To Accept The Fact.

I am kinda sick today and it just sucks... I went online today and browse some profile and came across Circe's. Read those things people sent and OH MY GOD!!! Someone actually asked if Circe is with someone. Although i only have a so-called crush, i instantly broke down and my heart was shattered through the 1 000 000th floor of an apartment. It really breaks my heart. I know that all these while i am the one who's playing the game all by myself but this is one thing and another thing when you know that your crush are with someone else. Ugh...i don't know what to say. So far, i had accepted the fact that i'm not the perfect match but sigh...i just couldn't let it go.

Trust me, i did a lot of things to forget about Circe but...it's like something is playing with me. Whenever i nearly forget all about Circe, something will come and like block my way from doing that. Is that what they called 'destiny'? Or i am just thinking too much with all the pressure i am facing? I am going to Singapore for a one week stay on the week of Christmas. Should i just go without informing or should i inform Circe and hopefully we can meet somewhere? But i doubt Circe will be there cause it's Christmas and it means celebration... Well, whatever it is...i think i will just wish 'all the best to you, Circe.'

On the other hand, Jasmine too had gone to S'pore and this is one of the reason i am going...