OMG!!!

My mom actually kept my keyboard and how did i actually manage to type? Well, thx to the 'on screen keyboard'. But i wont be typing on this blog for a long long time d i think. Neway, i saw the smaller 'you' on Gurney the other day. I was eatng @ Chicken Rice Shop and 'you' were sitting on the table next to me. Lol... it makes my imagination goes wild i tell ya. I was happy enough but thn, the real you will be much much more better. Like infinity of times better :D Lol...why am i 'writing' this? As if you know my blog lol. Lazy wanna continue d. These clicking is making me go crazy...

Things got better or worse?

Well, at least this year i have another person to share my feelings with. That's Kelvin. Recently just added to my imaginary buddy list. Not really a buddy though. I have kind of a funny ridiculous history with him but that's not a matter. I hate a few of my classmates very much. And yes, it's hate and not dislike, H A T E. I dare to say that one of them is Aric whom disgraces the name that's synonym to it. In that case it's Eric. He always thought he's the clever type of guy who knows every single thing in this world. Likes to act clever but then, today, i saw him failed. Fail in the sense that he doesnt know how to do Add Math's Permutation and Combination chap. He doesnt know how to do the questions on that chapter and starting to ask his friends about it which he hesitated to ask Vijaya.

Another one of them is Reuben. Same gang with that Aric. Likes to back-stab and criticize others. Always thought he's the Mr. Perfect and stuffs. He used to sit beside me but something happened (i dont know what) and then he changed his place. From time to time, he will criticize me but its best if i just ignore. He's such a two face that he even dare to be so friendly with Kelvin while when Kelvin is not around, backstabbing starts to happen. I really pity Kelvin and i told him that but then what he says really amazed me. He just like totally ignored what i said and told me that he wants to have good friends but then what the outcome was that he joined the negative side. It's his problem anyway. Dont wanna be poking around too much.

Where did i go??

Wow, it's the 2nd week of holiday already and for heaven sake, i am free to do whatever i want right now. What did i do??? Well, some things conflicts to handle settle, being a good boy and help my mom do house chores and babysitting my nephew and cousin (which is kinda fun) and a bit of leisure time for me, myself :D Actually, i wanna post about my holiday at Genting but then, i think i will leave that out since i am kinda lazy :p sweatz... Most of you paranormal non-believers will say i am crazy about what i am about to say but i dont give a damn. It's myself and as long as i know i am sane, it's good enough.

It seems that my whatever abilities is coming back. Well, i like never came across it like for more that a year already and all of the sudden, i am having those déjà vu, seeing all these 'beings' and some well, premonitions. I dont know why but it seems that it just come to me. I am not really freaking out as i have déjà vu like almost every week or sometimes even more that once a day and premonitions too. I started to get back the feeling on the presence of those so called ghost and stuffs. I dont know why this happen to me but it just came to me like that. I dont even know how to control it. Since i am gifted or cursed with these kind of abilities why not train myself on how to use it or whatever? I talked to my mom about that but she never encourage me on anything. Well, she always say the same old thing like, 'dont get yourself into all these things you might get into troubles'. I know that she do this because she wants me to be okay and all sort but then, i really want to use it for the best. I've found some way to like, urm... 'upgrade' my abilities but my mom just doesnt allow me to do it.

The first time those i can see all those ghostly beings was when i am 8 years old. Back in 1998. That is also when i get those déjà vu. Premonitions comes much much later like when i was in form 1, 2003. Though, i am still afraid of ghost although i kinda know how they looked like. I know many of you refuse/dont believe in those paranormal stuffs but then, because you never experienced it before. Many say i am gifted but i will say that i am neither gifted nor cursed. Though sometimes i feel like being cursed. Back to my story, when the first time i saw those 'beings' i told my family and they refused to believe me and since then, i just thought i am hallucinating until form 1. Scout camping. I still remember. I saw a tall tall guy urm...i dont know how to describe the height stand right in the middle of the main door in my school library. After that, i told my parents again since everyone saw what happened to me. Then, my mom bring me to those urm... 'tang kee' or rather the taoist people who can conjure the 'gods' to use their body. I dont really believe in them cause they can either be real or fake but then, i still refuse to believe that they can really conjure a god. From then on, my family members believed me and for some reason, my ability grows stronger.

Well, what happened last year? A girl in our school get possessed and i was somehow involved in it. Something attracted me to help her or some sort. Many people were there. Teachers and students. It was in form six block well which of course happened to a form sixer. After i watch those things, i wanna head back to my class but then, i started to feel like vomiting. Well, at first i dont know why but as i walk further away from the girl, my throat getting tighter and tighter and i feel like vomiting as ever. For some reason, i knew what must be done. I head back to the girl and introduced to her who i am and what i can do and how i can help her. I knew how to do these all by myself. I dont know why. I asked for their permission to go to their house since the 'ghosts' that possessed the girl was from their house. I checked the house and asked them a few questions and i already know what i should do. I dont know where do i get the knowledge from and how the hell i know so much about this ghost stuffs but it just came to my mind.

I even know where those 'beings' is and where they are hiding. I happened to glance at one of their photo album and those pictures are some what different. There is an unknown light coming from those pictures and i asked them what camera they use. And instantly they tell me they used a camera which they found from a temple. Aha! What does a camera signifies? Well, most of you dont know i think. Sometimes, camera are used to capture those ghosts into it. How? I dont have a single idea. I just know. Like now, what i am telling. Maybe most of you will say it's all just craps but never mind. I know and i am satisfied. That's all.

Then, i solved their problem and stuffs. But when my mom knew about it. She was kinda not very happy about what i did. She asked me not to involve much in it and this and that. I dont know what to say anymore. Just hope that one day i can really use those abilities to the fullest.

OMG...just like i've guessed it.

Well, it seems to be true now after i took a few test online to prove that i am really born with psychic power and not some crap. I do see things others dont and predict things others dont. I often have deja vu but then, sigh...many people do not believe in me. Anyway, this is the result i get from tickle.



Renzokuzen, when it comes to psychic abilities, you have an unusually strong talent in the area of Clairvoyance

This means you have an uncanny ability to see things that others can't. Transcending space, your mind is able to see physical objects from a distance, especially when they are particularly relevant to you or someone you know. For instance, you may suddenly get the feeling that there is a major traffic jam down the street from where you're driving and will know to avoid the area and take another route. Or perhaps a friend has lost a valuable piece of jewelry, and you get the sense that it is in their bathroom; later you find out that indeed that is where they found it.

Normally, people with your gift only occasionally have the opportunity to witness that their hunches are correct; however, there are ways you can get a stronger sense of it yourself. The more you understand your ability, the more you will be able to utilize it like a tool that can be applied in many positive ways.

While your strongest psychic talent is Clairvoyance, Tickle also analyzed your psychic strengths in:

* Retrocognition: The ability to know what happened in the past.
* Precognition: The ability to know what will happen in the future.
* Remote viewing: The ability to see physical objects at a distance.
* Telepathy: The ability to tune into others' thoughts.

It means that i am not scaring myself and i do!!! Oh my gawd...

By the way,

You Should Learn Japanese

You're cutting edge, and you are ready to delve into wacky Japanese culture. From Engrish to eating contests, you're born to be a crazy gaijin. Saiko!

What Language Should You Learn?

It's so damn true!!!!

I am sorry.

Well, since i am here i might just do something. First of all, to all the RO crazed fans, please come and join us in here. Well, i've been in this server like less than 2 weeks and i've found that they have a nice community and a friendly one too :D Well of course there are some jerks who would use their super skill and kill the noobs. Come and join us :D

On the other hand, well, i just want to say i am sorry. I don't know if you know my blog or anything but i just hope that you saw what i am about to write type. I do notice about what you do. I even know that sometimes you look at me or so. But, three times is more than enough. I still can take it but then, not my soul. I want a confirmation from you. I do not want to be a stupid person and let the world know who i am again. "Maybe all of this is just my illusion or i am just thinking too much". That is what i always tell myself. What you did forced me to pause, stop and look. You dont see i walk right to you and talk to you because i am afraid that you want to avoid me. I do not want this to happen. Like i said before, i still can withstand it but i do not know until when. I still love you and i really do. Not like but love.


"Renzokuzen William likes rainbows". What does that means? Does it signifies anything? What is "William I Laou You". That's what i've heard last year but then, i just pretend to be stupid and ignores it. Why? Because i've eaten all my own guts to give the three proposal to you. I left all my dignity behind just to think that something will change. Maybe i am just not mature enough to think positively. I do not know. I just want an answer. A definite answer with no excuses. 3 times. I still remember what you said the second time. Yes, again i will tell you. Maybe we can only meet in certain place and we dont have time. You still want to study. Yes. I know all that. But, i can wait. I've waited for more than a year. Why not more? It wont hurt me at all. Because i know you're there waiting for me and i am here waiting for you. If you really want to concentrate on study first, fine with me. I will always be there and support you but please, just tell me how you feel.

I am sorry and i hope that "We Belong Together"'s lyric will tell you everything. I love you.

Exam Is Around The Corner!

Well, since exam is near, i think i wont be posting anything up till then. I got 2 things to tell but i will leave it till after exam most probably. 1st is my trip to genting and the 2nd one is genting ghost sighting :p or rather 'mor mor kui' =.="

3 Cheers For GVC!!!

Recently, i've just recieved the news that we've won the international competition. It's a website building competition. For more info, visit www.virtualclassroom.org And here's the link to the competition i've joined http://www.gvc06temp02.virtualclassroom.org/ I cant believe we've won!!! :D Anyway, i am going Genting this weekend and sigh...my exam is only a week away and i barely did my revision. So, i am planning to do my revision at Genting since i was kinda forced to go there and i am not going into any theme park most probably.