Wednesday, September 08, 2010

Prophecy

I've had trouble handling my gift...or rather, i do not know how to control my gift. As far as i can remember, it had all started at the age of 8 with me catching a glimpse of the afterlife of my cousin's uncle. Like people and everything around us, my gift develops. From being able to see the afterlife-s to feeling what they're feeling to mental communication and deja vu at a very high rate of occurrence. Then, seeing solid forms of them instead of spiritual form and then as i grow, i discovered more of my abilities. I thought that it would stop at the I-can-see-ghost point but no.

Now, from deja vu to premonitions. I know that i will be in a bad accident in the future but when will be a very good question. Where? Right at the junction of Union High School. Ever watched Final Destination? The movie starts with one of the actor getting a premonition and stuff like that right? Well, i get that too and the worse of all, i feel the fear and the pain and i just woke up. Like how it happened to the actor, the scene goes on for like, 5 minutes or so but in reality, it only happened in a split second or a few. Yes, some of you might think that "Oh! You just watch too much movie" but sadly, no. Producers and most of the time, people who performs art in any form, musicians, novelist, artists and whatever else you can think of, has a special ability which they do not know of themselves. They get ideas from the beings on top (no, im not talking about gods) and i will not explain what those beings are.

And then, from premonitions to now, prophecies. What i prophesied is very simple and very frustrating.

Premonitions, Chris, Volcano, Earthquake, Universe

What are these? Do not ask me cause i dont know myself. I've gone through the first phase; Premonitions. I 'dreamed' about the future or rather my consciousness floats somewhere between the Earth realm and the realm beyond. I received messages from the beings above. What are those? Weird stuff i might say. First thing I saw was an arrow of sort. It's hard to be described and basically, it's not a normal arrow. Secondly, i saw a vial. Ever played starcraft? One of the stages of Protoss's. You need to rescue one of your ally from a vial thingie...I saw something like that. I too saw a spaceship of some sort. Not the normal UFO kind of thing but more or less, it is so.

Back then, the nights before i received these, i was unable to sleep well. No matter what time i slept, i will wake up at 4AM SHARP. I tried sleeping at 2AM even and still, i woke up at 4AM SHARP! I feel totally refreshed and not tired for the whole day. I got really frustrated cause i know this is not normal. You might argue that it's my biological clock is doing the trick and stuff but hell no i tell you. Believe or not, it's up to you.

Okay, enough about premonitions. Now, i am currently ongoing phase two; Chris. What's with Chris? I have no idea but i do now. I do not know why does premonitions links to Chris till now but at least i know what is going to happen. More or less. She is not herself and will not be for a period of time. Lately, my worst fear was confirmed. Thankfully, to confirm my truth, i'd told mother everything before it happened. Now even if nobody in the world believes me, mother WILL believe. Today, there had been an argument about her with the whole family. It had gone for days now and my family too feels that there's something wrong with her. Oh damn! What are all these riddles about? What crap am i writing!?

Whatever it is, since this is my blog, i will write whatever i knows about. That's all i can say. I had been furious with her a couple of times and thankfully, i was reminded that this is all according to the prophecy. What i do know is that IF, mother and father pushes her and argues with her, she will somehow leave. Leave the house? Leave for the afterlife? I do not know! I advised mother not to scold or yell at her and just let her be for the moment. Thankfully, mother heed my advice. I had given her the task to explain it to father and i hope that he believes in what was said.

Depression is going into me again just like what had happened when the first phase started. No matter what happens, will try my best to persevere! I do not believe in destiny but i believe that i had such abilities for a reason. I never wanted to get rid of my abilities but from time to time, i will hate or dislike them. If my duty is to observe and record, then so be it!

I just hope that i can do something about it...sighh...

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

FUCK!

DAMN! I seriously want to get out of my house right this instant! What the hell is wrong with everybody? Why do they want to intrude my privacy? I came to facebook for fun and do my own thing and live my own life but now...they're treating as if facebook is a place where they can poke into everybody's business! WHAT THE HELL!!!??? In real life, there's this thing called privacy line! IT TOO EXISTS ON VIRTUAL WORLD!!! HEEYYY!!! AMATEURS!!! PLEASE DO KNOW THAT PRIVACY LINE TOO EXISTS ON FACEBOOK AND ALL THE VIRTUAL WORLD!!!

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Urge

All of sudden, I've the feel to blog...but don't know what should i blog about haha!!! So many things i can talk about actually but dont really feel like it haha!! Exam's on monday and tonight, im gonna prepare my own notes after doing downstairs for postponed pot luck gathering with neighbors. Then, one round of dota and HELLO BORING see asshole CSO.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Bored

Im class right now...kinda tired and all. Long time no blog kekeke... many things happened of course but lazy wanna post anything. Kinda worried bout my final year project. Seeing Liang n Hoong going crazy, i also feel like going crazy. It's kinda weird. I am taking Basic Discrete Maths and Computer System Organization of Mr.Kevin's. The weird thing is that i can do well in BDM but not CSO. CSO is kinda theory base and lol...i kinda sucks in theory...which is weird...

I can do questions in BDM easily although they're maths...weird huh...never ever happen before. Binaries in CSO is making me crazy though...


I like this pic of myself :P Syok sendiri MWAHAHAHA!!!

Monday, October 19, 2009

Optical Illusions

I got all of these from Yahoo! Love all these so much!!!


Wormhole
The black and white circular lines make this illusion seem as if there are various depths in the image, creating different entryways and tunnels


Waves
The blue almond-shaped objects look as if they’re all passing over three separate columns.


Starbursts
These bright purple and green star-like shapes appear to be moving, which can be a little nauseating if you stare at it for too long.





Pulsing Vortex
If you stare at this one long enough you’ll notice a fast and pulsing multicolored vortex.



Kaleidescope
A collection of black, blue, green and white shapes appears to be five different kaleidoscope-type figures—each swirling toward their centers.


Hypnosis
Although this image is comprised of simple purple and green squares outlined in black, it looks like it is bulging out in the center.


Flowing Leaves
The brown leaf shapes against a green background make this look as if the entire group is flowing—making waves if you focus on the picture as a whole.


Bull's Eye
If you stare at the center of the image, it looks as if the outer rings are rotating in alternating directions—an effect meant to mesmerize the viewer.

Friday, August 21, 2009

Selfish

Is this really what i should start learning? One by one, people around me showed their selfishness. One by one, made me sad. One by one, made me feel like wanna die. One by one, just turns my world becomes gray. When will this end? I feel like crying...I know my heart is crying but there doesnt seem to be any tears dripping down my eyes. What is wrong? Every single time i think that there're others who're in the worse situation than i am, i brightened myself. How long can i keep lying to myself that i should stop helping others so that i do not end up hurting myself? How many times before i could learn that people are selfish? How many times should i cover myself from the fact that people leave after they obtained what they want from you?

HOW MANY TIMES MUST I GO THROUGH THIS BEFORE I LEARN MY LESSON???

JUST HOW MANY!???


Is it really a human's nature to get what they want and leave? How much pain do I have to suffer? I am gifted with the ability to know what I shouldnt know and to everyone, it is cool...to YOU it is cool but to me, it isn't! I'll bringing problems to myself. How much longer until I can control and ignore those things which I know unconciously? How much longer should I suffer before it drives me crazy? I'm just...speechless...you dissapoints me...mysteries bring fourth upon me...

Saturday, August 15, 2009

The Power of Music

Well, recently i was introduced to instrumental music specifically, piano by my friend. Amazingly, the music produced by Ryuichi Sakamoto isnt as hideous as what i always heard, in terms of piano. The hideous i mean isnt ugly, disgusting or anything near. It's just that those piano musics didnt reach my heard or mind. I didnt feel any peace or 'niceness' about the composed piece. It's very different in the case of Sakamoto's. It touched me and it's just very calm and peaceful listening to it. Im sure those of you who obsessively listens to music had this condition before whereby you thought you love a song but when you listen more of it, you feel bored and so on. That's because that song just didnt reach your heart.


Rain


Great artistes really do have weird behaviors and he for one is one of them. There's a conductor cum musician from Japan has the same style too. They're like really into the thing and just perform according to the flow of the music. Do they really have higher frequency like what Vinfred said? Whatever it is, they do produces great musics so i couldnt care less. Great painters, artiste and such really do have weird behaviors if you'd noticed. That's because they're not on the same level as a normal human. Their receptive powers are higher or greater than ours which, makes them special i guess.


Merry Christmas Mr.Lawrence