An old beginning, a new end...

I know, I know, the title doesnt makes sense but then again, most of the things i wrote doesn't makes sense, if you read it plainly of course :P

Anyway, sigh...I can't believe this person actually manage to makes me write a post for him after abandoning my blog for such a looooong time. He is non other than my official godbro, Albin. Well, he is leaving me us back to his kampung to tanam jagung for good. But knowing him, i'd wager that he already have plan(s) for his future (as usual) just that he refuses to tell me. I see no point in pestering him for his plan(s) though. So basically, this post is all about him.

Some intro about him is that he is 5 years older than me (I think) and he's much much much much much much much much MOOOREE smarter, experienced and intelligent than me. That's one of most important things why I respect him so much. Secondly, he's very very humble even though he's young but poor and...I really like it despite the fact that it gets annoying sometimes with the mysteries going on around him. Oh what the heck, if he wanna tell then i'll be ready to listen or else, he can keep it to himself (even though curiousity kills the cat and i cant help but pester him sometimes).

A funny fact when I met him is that, i actually dislikes him due to certain circumstances at that time and his facebook profile picture just makes him urm...."hate-able" unlikable (thankfully that profile pic is gone!). As time passes by, we get to know each other more and more and I found that we've quite some common interests and tada! relationship grows. *BROMANCE*


Knowing that he's leaving really impacts me because well, i finally found someone whom im able to open up and talk to but in the end, he've gotta leave :( Some of you might say "You still got other friends of yours" or "You've got your other half" or "Hey, i'm here, you can talk to me too" but you must know, IT'S JUST DIFFERENT! It's just like how you can talk alot to your mom but not your dad! (Well, at least that's the case for me) Okay, got tired of this useless explanation...moving on~~ Let's just say that we have the same channel/frequency (or at least that's my part).

Not to say that i have psychic power or what but well, he can read my body language as well as i can read his. I know what he wants and he just know what i wanted even though mostly I pretend not to know since sometimes, it's better to pretend not to know than to know *hmm tongue twister?* that does not happen all the time. At the end of the days between me and him (this sentence sounds so wrong), we talked about my urm..problem in McD *winks* and i really appreciate that talk.

He opens up to me so much that night (i mean midnight) just like how much i had opened up to him. So thankful for that talk cause i just like people telling me stuff, it makes me comfortable just like how my another good bro, Shawnie Prawnie tells me about his stuff before. Call me busybody or whatever, I dont care. Furthermore, he reminds me of a feeling I have not feel for a very very looong time since H.K. (I dont know what this feeling is called) where we talk about anything and everything.

Sigh...im just very very sad that he's leaving and my fun talkative time is no longer available. Just to clear the air, the reason I like to talk to him is because whatever i talked to him, he'll respond to me in a very fun way rather than repetitive responses like "Oh! Is it?", "Haha...", "Like that hor.." etc. So, in a way, our conversation is never dull or boring (to me). *NOTE: i know this sentence's grammar is wrong*

So, to sum things up, what did he taught me?

1. To change my atitude from I-AM-WHO-I-AM-AND-I-WONT-CHANGE into I-AM-WHO-I-AM-BUT-I-WILL-FIX-MY-SOME-OF-MY-WORST-ATITUDES kind of person. Okay it's confusing...basically, he (and SOMEONE else) advised me that i should accept criticisms and changes for the better in certain things instead of sticking to my old self but in the same time, to maintain my old self. Okay..it's still confusing but ahhh... heck cares...nobody reads my blog. An extra note is that, I can listen to him better cause the method of approach he used to tell me stuff is more friendly and loving...aww...you'll be a very good father in the future Gor.

2. Politics are the most important thing in working life. Even though i'd already know this fact, but still, he relates his experiences to me. In a way, I learns to agree to disagree (SOMEONE else taught me this too but well, it's another case :P) **Pls dont get jealous if you reads this**

3. Some fun facts like what's goin on around the world, who's the real richest guy in SOME place, what branded stuff not worth buying, cars, people and so on. I looove general knowledge (even though it might not be useful but at least, it's good to know).

4. That not all poor people are selfish or useless. I have this thought cause suffice to say that certain poor parties made me think so hence i just stereotyped them.

5. That it's really really important to appreciate people around you all the time before they're gone. Actually, he just proves that what im doing all these while is correct and worth it. I appreciates everyone and everything around me or at least i do my best to.

6. That it is still really painful to know someone you deared so much to leave you but you must learn grow up and learn to leave things behind.

Experience 1 - I cried until i puke when my grandma passed away when i was 11 y.o.

Experience 2 - I cried nonstop and keep holding my grandpa's hand when he died and refused to stand up from kneeling down on the day his body was pushed into the fire to be turned into ashes.

This is the third (my favourite number) SEPERATION (i repeat, it's SEPERATION so don't think i mixed you up with dead people. I never think of my gramps as dead anyway, i always thought of it as a temporal seperation in human life) i ever had with someone whom i really really loves and the first time ever i manage to hold back my tears so well. Of course the moment he told me that he's leaving, my shoulder slumped and there was a lump in my throat but since it's public place, i have no choice but to swallow it back and let it out when im home XD


Okay, i think i should stop here already since this post is so length-y already. Last but not least, Ah Gor, stay healthy, stay funny and stay wickedy okay :) I don't know why i said this but, be true to yourself okay? Figure out what my last sentence meant by yourself and... I LOVE YOU bro.

Albin

What comes must always go,

That's how the story roll,

Even though it had taken such a toll,

I have no choice but to let it flow.

Memories will be my keepsake,

At least i know it is not fake,

Remember shall I on what was said,

Same goes to the things that we made.

Gor Gor Willie calls,

Some heavy rain is dropping as autumn falls,

Sometimes, i wished myself was a doll,

Free from emotions and thoughts like an empty hall.

Life of a person is full of curve,

Writing this poem is getting on my nerve,

Cause it's so hard to find a sentence which matches with loves,   

And lastly,

Gor, i will always remember you with full of loves.
(This last stanza sucks btw)

P/S: One thing i dont like about you is that you're evil. Threatening me on every single thing that i refused to tell you or do. even though i like it *masochist*

PP/S: I would like to see you cry in front of me so that i can cry with you for one last time. I love seeing people cry so that i can be the man to comfort the other. (Yes i am weird)