SPM COMING SOON!!!

Well, guess what? I actually can piggyback wi-fi from one of my neighbour. Apparently, my neighbour does not set a password for its connection. So, i just use it... Despite my knowledge on graphics and computer, i do not know if the wi-fi connection actually logs IDs, password and stuff. So, i dont really dare to type my personal stuff inside lolz. But i doubt that they do so though, i have such a thought. SPM is just around the corner and I HAVENT DO ALL THOSE READINGS YET!!! I still got a lot to catch up but SPM is kicking in about one week or two!!! My chemistry, physic and biology is still on the border while history is the only thing i've been reading and that too only till Chapter 12!!! Sigh...such a tension...i can’t believe i am actually still blogging lol...

Anyway, here's my 'After SPM to do list'.

1. Learn and improve my graphic skill.
2. Learn c++.
3. Further expertise on house chores.
4. Vacation on Genting, Langkawi and Singapore. (I doubt i will go to S'pore cause it takes me 1 week plus time)
5. Workout.
6. Gain weight.
7. Buy all Eoin Colfer's Artemis Fowl novels and Percy Jackson novels
8. Get ready for National Service.

Well, i do not know which batch i am in for NS but i seriously hope that i am in the first batch which is from Jan till March. On the other hand, i am done with Circe (though my heart says otherwise). Well, i think it's time to move on with my life and well, just get on with it. Maybe friends are what we should be and not something else. Frankly, Circe is the first person i ever dear so much after my family. Well, again, frankly speaking, i do not know much about Circe but well, Circe just has this effect on me where i want the best out of it. I just do not know why and i really do not wanna think about it anymore cause the more i think about it, the more confuse i become.

I do not know if it's worth rejecting so many people because of her. Maybe yes, maybe no. But seriously, i do not want to know. Hey it rhymes! Lolz...i always does that whenever i make such rhymes. Anyway, one people managed to break through this invisible love/like barrier of mine and it's Kim (short for Kimberly). She managed to change my mind towards Circe thanks to her advices. Anyway, SPM is coming and i wanna say all the best to my following good friends.

All the best and good luck to:

- Me myself :p
- Circe (well, i do not know what to say)
- Edward (whom i stupidly argued with)
- Matthew (friend since primary)
- Nazrin (my good buddy)
- Marcus (my twin like friend)
- Meng Jon (he's like a brother i never know i had and also a person whom i always like to be with cause he just makes me so happy with his stupid jokes)
- Eric (my brother like friend)
- T'ng Choong (top boy in my school and a very nice friend)
- Sim a.k.a Bang Kuang Boy a.k.a BKB (computer freak)
- Kelvin.L (i hate him and like him from time to time)
- Wen (online buddy)
- Kelvin (my tuition friend)
- Eugene (another tuition friend)
- Ken (yup, another tuition friend)
- Lun Xiang (kinda nerdy and slowpoke but well, still a nice friend)
- Nicholas (my cousin)
- Mohana (used to a friend whom i like to talk with)
- Razeen (my primary school best friend)
- Fikri (wherever you are)
- Satish (wherever you are)


- Amber (a nice friend whom liked me lolz and she's a break dancer, HOT!!!)
- Xia Wen (i never knew you existed in my life, haha….JK)
- Lee Yip (my dance partner)
- Guendeline (my dear cousin)
- Caroline (a cheerful girl)
- Wan (far relative)
- Boon Joon (she plays Maple, Warcraft, R.O. and others, hot!!!)
- Chia Hoey (ice kacang girl)
- Sin Wah (know you since like... small)
- Joey (sorry but you're not my cup of tea)
- Sharon (beautiful name matches beautiful people)

Well, and any other whom i may have missed their name out... :D FYI, color do not signifies anything. It's just for the sake of fun :P

ALL THE BEST TO ALL OF YOU AND GOOD LUCK (if there are any and if you believe in luck).

Have You Ever Asked Yourself?

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Have you ever asked yourself why you believe in God? Have you ever asked yourself why you chose this religion? Have you ever asked yourself why you believe in Angels and Demons, God And Devil? Have you ever asked yourself does spiritual realm exist? Have you ever asked yourself do people really get possessed by those ghost/spirits/devil/demon? Have you ever asked yourself if Virgin Mary really a virgin? Have you ever asked yourself how they know Jesus is really the son of God? Have you ever asked yourself who is God? Have you ever asked yourself if what Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. said is true? Have you ever asked yourself how'd they know what the Jesus, Nabi, whatever Tao and Buddhist gods said? Have you ever asked yourself who wrote the Holy Bible, Al-Quran, Vedas, Sutras etc? Have you???

These are those few questions i kept asking myself. I tried to ask others too but i failed to get the answer. And one thing, i will never get an answer from my family. Why? I am a Chinese and i will be scolded if i ever question Gods. Who are these deities? Are they just a spirit or god? Is there the existence of Celestial Realm and Nether Realm? I am confuse. I dont even know if i believe in God. I just dont know. From time to time, i will pray to those Tao gods. But i do have some faith in Lady Guan Yin. I do not know why but i just do. Sometimes, i silently challenged God if they exist. Frankly speaking, in the same time, i do feel scared if i actually offended them. Do you believe in the story of Adam and Eve just like that? What can you explain where the scientists actually created unicellular microorganism if i am not mistaken it's paramecium sp. out of chemicals? Are we created by chemicals too?

Who are Zeus, Poseidon and Hades? Who are the minor gods, Athena, Prometheus, Artemis, Ares, Hera, Eros, etc? Do they really exist? Why are these such stories like Heracles and Odysseus? What about the Hindu? It is believed to be one of the oldest religion? Where did that came from? I am kind of desperate in knowing answers to these questions. I always keep these to myself fearing that i will be criticized or being treated as an outcast. The reason i voice out here and right now is because i am on the net and i do not think that my friends will be reading any of my blog since i kept it as a secret from them.

How can i get these answer. Sometimes, i cant find ways to express myself. I feel like being played. Stuck between these two realms of good and evil which i do not even know if it even exist. I used to have faith in gods but as time goes by...so does the faith. My experience encountering these spirits/ghosts makes me rethink again. And the more i think, the worst i feel. I really do not know if we human should just believe in god just like that. And if so, why are there so many religion? We are human right? We are homo sapien and we are one and only one. But why do we have so many different kinds of gods and believes? Why do the so merciful and lovable god separate us? I know my post are filled with unanswered questions and in the same time there too may be some confusion within my words but well, i just hope that someday, someone will enlighten me with the truth and only truth.

F.A.I.T.H.

ARGH!!! LIZARD!!!

It's been a very very long while since our family had such a scare-funny situation. Yesterday or rather early in the morning today, our family had this lizard crisis. Well, i think i should be the one to be blamed for this lizard issue. It's a very rainy day yesterday and according to my mom, rain attracts insects and small little animals. I live at 20th floor on a condominium and well, i like the scenery in my parent's room that faces the mountains. So, i opened the floor length window and get myself to the balcony. And oh my gosh...a little lizard actually dropped onto my arm and sweatz...i slap it away and into my parent's room. I told my mom about it and she and my sister started to scold me for this stupid act. All of the sudden, the lizard came out of nowhere and sweatz...my mom and sis screamed like banshee and it was around 0100!!! My mom ran away from the lizard while my sister jumped into the bed. And thank heaven that i was outside trying to find something to catch the lizard.

Of course i am not the one who's going to catch it because i am afraid of little things like lizard, frog, spider and stuffs. Well, what to do? I woke my grandfather up and ask him to catch the lizard for us. My mom, sis and I were like a bunch of clowns laughing at each other for the stupid acts we did and in the same time, not helping my gramps at all. The lizard crawled into my mom's cupboard and my mom and sis ordered me to help my gramps cause i am the one who caused all these havocs. I help my gramps to 'spy' on the lizard and when we found it, my gramps use a stick and actually like dig it from the wall and accidentally throw it at me. I made a very loud screech and some sort of girl like for heaven sake. I ran as fast as possible and actually jumped onto my mom's bed. On the other hand, my mom and sis too run far far away from that place and my screech made them run away further. And then, another hit from my gramps and flush~~~ the lizard is out of my house!!!

Hooray!!! Three cheers for my gramps! After that, we were laughing like hell and all of us had a small stomach ache from all the laughs we had. It's been a looong loong time since we had this kind of fun. Now, i am wondering if my gramps is not here anymore, who's going to catch all these small little things? My dad isn’t that brave either. Maybe it's cause well, we're not exposed to all these kinds of insects and small animals...

It's Hard To Accept The Fact.

I am kinda sick today and it just sucks... I went online today and browse some profile and came across Circe's. Read those things people sent and OH MY GOD!!! Someone actually asked if Circe is with someone. Although i only have a so-called crush, i instantly broke down and my heart was shattered through the 1 000 000th floor of an apartment. It really breaks my heart. I know that all these while i am the one who's playing the game all by myself but this is one thing and another thing when you know that your crush are with someone else. Ugh...i don't know what to say. So far, i had accepted the fact that i'm not the perfect match but sigh...i just couldn't let it go.

Trust me, i did a lot of things to forget about Circe but...it's like something is playing with me. Whenever i nearly forget all about Circe, something will come and like block my way from doing that. Is that what they called 'destiny'? Or i am just thinking too much with all the pressure i am facing? I am going to Singapore for a one week stay on the week of Christmas. Should i just go without informing or should i inform Circe and hopefully we can meet somewhere? But i doubt Circe will be there cause it's Christmas and it means celebration... Well, whatever it is...i think i will just wish 'all the best to you, Circe.'

On the other hand, Jasmine too had gone to S'pore and this is one of the reason i am going...

Circe / Jasmine/ Edward.

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Frankly speaking, i do not want to end up like the Namewee. That's why i do this.

Lots of things had happened since my exam is over but i do not have time to post anything due to my BIG exam this November. Wish me luck :p, if there's any lolz. Well, i will make this short. And the short i mean is what happened during the long period when i am not posting.(sorry, i know it's bad English). First of all, well, about my love life.

It's seems to me that i still can't forget anything about Circe although i've forced myself to do so. Trust me, i even forced myself to like someone else. Which turns out that we are just good friends which i'm so glad we are and appreciate it very much. At first, i thought that well, at least i am into someone else and not Circe but, soon enough, i realize that i dont have any feeling towards this person. Well, i do treat this person as a family member but that's it. That's what my love towards this person and nothing more. But sometimes, I/we go overboard and i do something normally people wont/doesnt do lolz.

Second of all, my family friend is leaving us.

We (my sisters and my family friend, Jasmine) have decided to spend our one last week with her in a memorable way. Penang is a small place but we managed to do quite a lot of things. First, we had a great weekend by staying up all night which in the same time, i broke my own record for the hours of waking up. Previous record was about 27 Hours but this time, 48 Hours. But the bad part was, i am so fatigued on the day i woke up. Back to Jasmine. Well, on Saturday, i didnt went to Gurney and Queensbay with them (Jas, sis and friends) cause i had an argument with my eldest sister. I had to take a ride on her car if i were to follow them but i've decided not to back down. So, i stayed at home. Me, some friends accompanied her till morning at my home playing card games and computer games.

Early in the morning we had breakfast and went back to again my house to play some more. At night, we had dinner on a restaurant-like shop eating 'Hu Tao Bee Hoon' or rather 'Fish Head Bee Hoon'. The name is like that but well, we didnt really eat those. Later on, we went to the beach behind Paradise Hotel and captured some great pictures there. Checkout my friendster profile to look at the pics. My com is going crazy so i cant upload any pics. Maybe next time, maybe not. Well, we had lots of fun and that's it. Sadly, she's going to Singapore to further her studies and probably won't come back here again. Her relatives stays there and she herself plans to get P.R. (permanent resident) and move her family there. Since her sister is also working there. But of course she will come back for holiday once in a while. And about dont know how many years later, my 2nd sis is going in followed by my eldest sis. Soon after, it's my turn to migrate there and most probably, me too will apply for P.R.

Frankly speaking, Malaysia sucks in the sense of government. I like my country but not the way they administer it. In moral, they teach us about the word 'ADIL' (justice/fair) but the government themselves are not fair. They always give priorities to the Malays and not us, the Chinese, Indians and other races. The only thing that worries us is our parents. We (sis and me) dont think our parents wanna move to S'pore with us.

Third of all,

Well, i just saw the comment Edward wrote to me.I dont really check my blogger things that often and i just found out other than his comment, there are others too and sweatz...it's like more than a year. Frankly speaking, I've totally forgotten about why i am angry of him until i read my previous post. But then again, actually i am only angry like for a few days. And after that, i am just playing with the angry thing. It seems that it lasted kinda long but i kinda like stuck to it. Well, since i dont think he's reading my post anymore, i dare to say this. After the incident, i dream about him quite a few days. I dreamed about him saying sorry to me and me saying sorry to him and all that kind of stuffs. Well, in his comment and the post in his blog he asked me to read. I'd like to say that i agree on certain ones and disagree on certain ones.

First of all, i do not defend my friend because i'm obligated to do so but it's because i wanna do so and seeing someone whom i consider like a best/good friend said is bad...reeeeeealy bad. Well, now i know that he's not the one who wrote 'M2K loves Daniel', it makes clear of everything. But one thing is that, i have doubt that he never said he despises me. But, what the heck. I am not really a person who keep all these kind of thing. Maybe the Malay proverb 'Masuk telinga kanan, keluar telinga kiri, tetapi ada yang sudah terpahat di hati' is correct but well, i tend to forget all the bad things easily. I am not that calculative, and sometimes, i do the 'Chin Luien Kam Feng' thing just like that. Translated in English it meant something like, 'Money throw here, throw there'. Sorry i hate translating cause i am really stupid in explaining stuff. I do miss him as a friend and i wonder if this is fate cause i just talk to him today out of desperation to call Matthew and here i am. Checking out my blog and found his comment.

Anyway, i do have to agree a small group of friends is better than a big group of friends. I too have seen many who were neglected by their big group of friends just like that. In a big group of friends, you dont or maybe wont really know what's inside them and as a result, a more unstable friend relationship occurs. Since i am in primary i have this habit of having small groups of friends. I started on standard 1 with Chu Han and Kuan as my best friends and later on developed into four by adding Matthew into the list. But on the last year of my primary, things changed. Conflicts occurs and i have a new group of friends with Razeen, Fikri, Satish and me myself. It's really a multiracial group with the Muslim Razeen, Malay, Indian and Chinese. I do miss the time with them and i do miss Fikri and Satish. I've lost contact with them except Razeen because he's in the same school as i am. Fikri went to boarding school while Satish's UPSR result wasnt good and were sent to SMK Georgetown.

Well, i do wanna make further elaboration but well, i guess time is the essence and i have to take my nap before i go for tuition. But i guess that's all. One thing is that i will not say sorry to Edward cause i dont think i am all wrong and sorry isnt the kind of word i usually use and furthermore, it's kinda hard to say sorry just like the song sang by Blue "Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest Word". I do not know if this will be my last post until SPM is over but i hope that i have some more time to spend on my blog. Tataz... Renzokuzen, out.

What do you think about this?

Basically, i know i am a guy or rather male myself. But I wanna ask something. Do you think that MOST/MANY GUYS ARE STUPID??? Stupid in a way that not literally stupid but 'actionly' stupid. Well i know it's kind of hard to understand what i mean cause i dont really understand what i am saying too right now :p. Anyway, i will give out a general example instead.

Girls: They think before they act and always have a backup plan before doing something.
Guys: They just do what they want without thinking the consequences or the side effect.

Do you support what i said? I will give you some examples i've come through.

Guys==>

1. Both of my friends are gossiping about someone. And they gossip it loudly. Sweatz... i've told them that the volume of their gossiping can be heard by me and they just 'sweep' me off by saying 'no we're not talking about him/her/whatever'. Fine i thought. Then, they are giving nicknames to people like calling my friends Britney, Madonna or whatever. (BTW, if you're reading this, then no offense cause i'm just giving example and i did not say who you are.) And lolz...i know who are they lol although every time they denied who the person is. I cant tell you how they say but then it's SUPER OBVIOUS.

2. Again my friend gossiped about me and i was treated like an outcast for a while. I do not know why in the first place but then lolz...again obvious actions shows why i was treated as an outcast. Urm...they somehow discriminate me over some stupid thing but at last it turns out to be bogus. Can't they like do thing more secretly???

3. One of my friends bought some porno and was caught by his mom. Where'd he kept it? Well stupid enough, in his drawer. Sweatz...his father own a big house or rather bungalow and he's stupid enough to keep in his drawer and the worst of all, how come he doesnt come up with a backup plan. Like, 'In case my parents or whosoever found my porn, i should do this and that'.

While for the girls ==>

1. One of my friends is a lesbian and she came from a very strict family. Well, we're like best friend so, we tell each other many or maybe everything lolz. So this is what happened. She's not allowed to have cellphone(s) but her urmz... 'boyfriend' bought her a cellphone. Once, her mom founds out that she has a cellphone and she asked whose cellphone is this and his dad immediately grab from her and check all the stuffs inside. Found some love messages and what's her excuse? Well, she tells her parents that sweatz...the cellphone is mine and i am her lover and we're breaking up. And for an extra, she says that she denied my love but I'm persistent and as a result, she didn't get scolded because it's so called 'my fault'. But i do not get scolded either lolz. Because i did some explanations too lolz...

2. This one is a bit funny but then it's true. She has a boyfriend and other than that she has many friends. But because she wants her status to be 'single and available', so she didn't tell anyone that she has a boyfriend. But she do tell me lolz...cause she's my god sister. Then how do they meet? Well, again i was used. Everyone or rather her friends know about our relationship. And so, i become the midman or whatever and lolz...follow them go dating lolz but then i am a 'lamppost' and must be one. And in case anyone asks who is he? Well, he's just my friend lolz...

I guess that's all i want to say. See, the girls have backup plans but do the guys have them? No...they dont and they act stupidly. I know not all of them are like so but then according to science. It's true. I read it from a book that guys act without thinking while girls does. Maybe you guys out there will deny about it but then, i wont say no. It's just my opinion or the way i think. That's all...

Who is Circe?

In Greek mythology, Circe or Kírkē (Greek Κίρκη, falcon), was a Queen goddess (or sometimes nymph or sorceress) living on the island of Aeaea.

Circe's father was Helios, the God of the Sun and the owner of the land where Odysseus' men ate cattle, and her mother was Perse, an Oceanid; she was sister of Aeetes, the king of Colchis and of Pasiphaë and Aga. Circe transformed her enemies, or those who offended her, into animals through the use of magical potions. She was renowned for her knowledge of drugs and herbs.

In Homer's Odyssey, her home Aeaea is described as a water mansion standing in the middle of a clearing in a dense wood. Around the house prowled lions and wolves, the drugged victims of her magic; they were not dangerous, and fawned on all newcomers. Circe worked at a huge loom. She invited Odysseus' crew to a feast, the food laced with one of her magical potions, and she turned them all into pigs with a wand after they gorged themselves on it. Only Eurylochus, suspecting treachery from the outset, escaped to warn Odysseus and the others who had stayed behind at the ships. Odysseus set out to rescue his men, but was intercepted by Hermes and told to procure some of the herb moly to protect him from the same fate. When her magic failed she was so astonished that he was unaffected that she fell in love with him and agreed to return his men to human form. For one year Odysseus and Circe were lovers. She later assisted him in his quest to reach his home.
Circe Offering the Cup to Odysseus, by John William Waterhouse.
Circe Offering the Cup to Odysseus, by John William Waterhouse.

According to Homer, she suggested to Odysseus two alternative routes to return to Ithaca: either toward the "Wandering Rocks" (possibly the pumiceous Lipari Islands; in the 13th-century Chinese travel notes of Chou Ju-kua they are called similarly), where King Aeolus reigned. Or, to pass between the dangerous Scylla and the whirlpool Charybdis, conventionally identified with the Strait of Messina.

Towards the end of Hesiod's Theogony (1011f) we find that Circe bore of Odysseus three sons: Agrius (otherwise unknown), Latinus, and Telegonus who ruled over the Tyrsenoi, that is the Etruscans.

Later poets generally only speak of Telegonus as Odysseus' son by Circe. When grown to manhood, later poets reported, she sent him to find Odysseus, who had long since returned to his home on Ithaca, but on arrival Telegonus accidentally killed his father. He brought the body back to Aeaea and took Odysseus' widow Penelope and son Telemachus with him. Circe made them immortal and married Telemachus, while Telegonus made Penelope his wife.

Dionysius of Halicarnassus (1.72.5) cites Xenagoras the historian as claiming that Odysseus and Circe had three sons: Romus, Anteias, and Ardeias who respectively founded three cities called by their names: Rome, Antium, and Ardea.

That Circe also purified the Argonauts for the death of Apsyrtus may be early tradition.

In later tales Circe turned Picus into a woodpecker for refusing her love, and Scylla into a monstrous creature with six dogs' heads when Glaucus (another object of Circe's affection) declared his undying love for her. She had one daughter: Aega.

In my case, Circe is someone else and not this Greek's Circe.

Source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Circe