Terrible Neighbour

I had known that my neighbour is harbouring those little spirits in their house for years. I would not mind nor would I care if only my neighbour know how to keep them under control instead of letting them wander all over the places and disturb others. These things had ventured into our place for quite a few times already and every single time, chaos happened.

I do dare to say that I am patient enough to let them do what they want and again and again, just shoo-ed them off instead of taking actions. But this time, it is just too much! They started to make some physical actions on us or rather, on my grandfather. Once, an invisible force had tried to carry him and throw him down from the aisle of my house and when it failed, it pushed my grandfather to another side of the wall and he banged his head on the wall with a loud thump. Thankfully, my grandfather had a strong will and know what is going on and hang on to the handle on the aisle with all his strength or else, it would have been a murder/homicide/suicide depending on what the police would have came up the assessment with.

I heard the thump actually but I do not know what happened until my grandfather walked into our house and I saw that his legs were stained with the wall's excess paint powder thing. I take that as a sign of struggle as there is no way the stain would be all over both of his legs if he just fell (the floor is made from cement with no white paint). Furthermore, the injury on his head was directly on the middle of his head and heck, how could you fall and knock yourself head on? If you do fall, I think the back of your head would have gotten injured instead, right? That was a few months ago.

Then now, those things are back and I had been seeing them for a few times now. The funny thing is, I do not feel scared when I saw them but instead, it's anger and frustration. Maybe it is because they are too much and I guess enough is enough.

Yesterday, grandpa was admitted into hospital because he somehow fainted in the market that he goes every morning. Thankfully everyone there know who he is and so, they manage to contact Mother after they had sent grandpa to hospital by ambulance. Of course I went into the worry-die-me mode I heard about the news and wanted to go to hospital so badly. Sadly, I am stuck in the office, working.

Some of you would think, "What does your grandfather's accident have got to do with your neighbour?" or in what sense could I blame that this is the doing of those entities?

Well, I had seen them too much and more or less, I can sense what they are thinking. That is all that I could describe. It was just a suspicion that it is the doings of the entities at the beginning but it was confirmed when I went back home to take a shower and saw one of them outside peeking at our house with a sinister smile. I must say, my coward failed me (yes, coward, because I am not scared at that moment) and I yelled and threatened that if they do come and disturb us again, I will seal them off from reincarnation and they shall stay in the same place forever.

Somehow, I just know I have the ability to do that. After I came back much later from visiting my grandpa, I had decided to seal them off in that house of my neighbour's. Don't ask me how as I would not like to describe it. Hopefully, my anger is strong enough to keep them in place.

Life has been a routine.

Yes, lately it had been a routine. Nothing fun nor out of extraordinary. Job in B.Braun is nice and the people here are much more fun compared to my time in HSBC. It was a helluva boring desk job over there! No internet, no one to have fun or chat like crazy with since my age gap with theirs is like...10++ years old MINIMUM. So, somehow, we just don't sync hahaha. Worse of all, even though my job title is "Temporary Clerk" but I dont feel like one. I'd say I could rename it as "Temporary Clerk-Secretary-Office Boy cum General Worker". Like seriously, I pick up phone calls for my superior, help my manager and my direct boss to carry documents or boxes or whatever that they asks me to.

Other than that, the manager herself performs favoritism which I seriously loathe. Everyone knows it because it's super obvious!

Okay, enough about my previous job haha. Anyway, yeah, life has been a routine. Wake up, go work, come back, play wow or rest a while, sleep and it repeats. Ooohh....and i tell ya..so damn bored right now. That's why im re-blogging hahaha! The work here is not as much compared to the work in the bank but when there are work, it is much more stressful compared to two or three days worth of work in bank. The work in HSBC is tedious and so, you don't really need to think much while over here, you have to use your brain and squeeeze the brain juice out.

Okay, crapping here. Dont know what else to write. Very blank now. Gonna take half day off~

Working Life

Now that I am not home and thus, no more 24-7 World of Warcraft time, might as well use my free time in office for blogging hahaha... Second week here and wow man...I learned a lot compared to my 3 months temporary job in HSBC as a clerk. In HSBC, all I do is sit down from 9 to 6 on the desk, check all those nonsense papers and worse of all, NO FREAKING DAMN INTERNET! I loathed the place since the first day I started there and I told myself "Ooohh boy, it's gonna be a damn damn long 3 months".

Over here, it's much more relaxing in terms of environment and the working life. Nobody cares much about what you're doing as long as you completes your job. Furthermore, most of the people here are nice including most of my colleagues. Friendly and helpful since the first day of my work. My boss, Teresa is awesome! She is so friendly and she have some very good advice. She's in her late 40s or so but she doesn't look like one. It's very relaxing to be around her...smiling all the time and soothing voice and you know...everything nice a mother could be.

Then there's my senior/work-buddy who assists me and guide me in everything. Well, I've to take over his tasks soon so I guess it's the right choice for him to teach me hahahha. Even so, he taught me like he mean it instead of you know...urm....how could I say...lazy kind of way?

Anyway, there had been some kind of bad things going on around here but overall, everyone here is great! Second week only and I've already felt like home. The best of all, the MNC Im working in is HUGE!!! It took me about 6 hours to walk around all the plants and even so, I have only completed 90% of the tour. Ahhh... I love my job...for now.

An old beginning, a new end...

I know, I know, the title doesnt makes sense but then again, most of the things i wrote doesn't makes sense, if you read it plainly of course :P

Anyway, sigh...I can't believe this person actually manage to makes me write a post for him after abandoning my blog for such a looooong time. He is non other than my official godbro, Albin. Well, he is leaving me us back to his kampung to tanam jagung for good. But knowing him, i'd wager that he already have plan(s) for his future (as usual) just that he refuses to tell me. I see no point in pestering him for his plan(s) though. So basically, this post is all about him.

Some intro about him is that he is 5 years older than me (I think) and he's much much much much much much much much MOOOREE smarter, experienced and intelligent than me. That's one of most important things why I respect him so much. Secondly, he's very very humble even though he's young but poor and...I really like it despite the fact that it gets annoying sometimes with the mysteries going on around him. Oh what the heck, if he wanna tell then i'll be ready to listen or else, he can keep it to himself (even though curiousity kills the cat and i cant help but pester him sometimes).

A funny fact when I met him is that, i actually dislikes him due to certain circumstances at that time and his facebook profile picture just makes him urm...."hate-able" unlikable (thankfully that profile pic is gone!). As time passes by, we get to know each other more and more and I found that we've quite some common interests and tada! relationship grows. *BROMANCE*


Knowing that he's leaving really impacts me because well, i finally found someone whom im able to open up and talk to but in the end, he've gotta leave :( Some of you might say "You still got other friends of yours" or "You've got your other half" or "Hey, i'm here, you can talk to me too" but you must know, IT'S JUST DIFFERENT! It's just like how you can talk alot to your mom but not your dad! (Well, at least that's the case for me) Okay, got tired of this useless explanation...moving on~~ Let's just say that we have the same channel/frequency (or at least that's my part).

Not to say that i have psychic power or what but well, he can read my body language as well as i can read his. I know what he wants and he just know what i wanted even though mostly I pretend not to know since sometimes, it's better to pretend not to know than to know *hmm tongue twister?* that does not happen all the time. At the end of the days between me and him (this sentence sounds so wrong), we talked about my urm..problem in McD *winks* and i really appreciate that talk.

He opens up to me so much that night (i mean midnight) just like how much i had opened up to him. So thankful for that talk cause i just like people telling me stuff, it makes me comfortable just like how my another good bro, Shawnie Prawnie tells me about his stuff before. Call me busybody or whatever, I dont care. Furthermore, he reminds me of a feeling I have not feel for a very very looong time since H.K. (I dont know what this feeling is called) where we talk about anything and everything.

Sigh...im just very very sad that he's leaving and my fun talkative time is no longer available. Just to clear the air, the reason I like to talk to him is because whatever i talked to him, he'll respond to me in a very fun way rather than repetitive responses like "Oh! Is it?", "Haha...", "Like that hor.." etc. So, in a way, our conversation is never dull or boring (to me). *NOTE: i know this sentence's grammar is wrong*

So, to sum things up, what did he taught me?

1. To change my atitude from I-AM-WHO-I-AM-AND-I-WONT-CHANGE into I-AM-WHO-I-AM-BUT-I-WILL-FIX-MY-SOME-OF-MY-WORST-ATITUDES kind of person. Okay it's confusing...basically, he (and SOMEONE else) advised me that i should accept criticisms and changes for the better in certain things instead of sticking to my old self but in the same time, to maintain my old self. Okay..it's still confusing but ahhh... heck cares...nobody reads my blog. An extra note is that, I can listen to him better cause the method of approach he used to tell me stuff is more friendly and loving...aww...you'll be a very good father in the future Gor.

2. Politics are the most important thing in working life. Even though i'd already know this fact, but still, he relates his experiences to me. In a way, I learns to agree to disagree (SOMEONE else taught me this too but well, it's another case :P) **Pls dont get jealous if you reads this**

3. Some fun facts like what's goin on around the world, who's the real richest guy in SOME place, what branded stuff not worth buying, cars, people and so on. I looove general knowledge (even though it might not be useful but at least, it's good to know).

4. That not all poor people are selfish or useless. I have this thought cause suffice to say that certain poor parties made me think so hence i just stereotyped them.

5. That it's really really important to appreciate people around you all the time before they're gone. Actually, he just proves that what im doing all these while is correct and worth it. I appreciates everyone and everything around me or at least i do my best to.

6. That it is still really painful to know someone you deared so much to leave you but you must learn grow up and learn to leave things behind.

Experience 1 - I cried until i puke when my grandma passed away when i was 11 y.o.

Experience 2 - I cried nonstop and keep holding my grandpa's hand when he died and refused to stand up from kneeling down on the day his body was pushed into the fire to be turned into ashes.

This is the third (my favourite number) SEPERATION (i repeat, it's SEPERATION so don't think i mixed you up with dead people. I never think of my gramps as dead anyway, i always thought of it as a temporal seperation in human life) i ever had with someone whom i really really loves and the first time ever i manage to hold back my tears so well. Of course the moment he told me that he's leaving, my shoulder slumped and there was a lump in my throat but since it's public place, i have no choice but to swallow it back and let it out when im home XD


Okay, i think i should stop here already since this post is so length-y already. Last but not least, Ah Gor, stay healthy, stay funny and stay wickedy okay :) I don't know why i said this but, be true to yourself okay? Figure out what my last sentence meant by yourself and... I LOVE YOU bro.

Albin

What comes must always go,

That's how the story roll,

Even though it had taken such a toll,

I have no choice but to let it flow.

Memories will be my keepsake,

At least i know it is not fake,

Remember shall I on what was said,

Same goes to the things that we made.

Gor Gor Willie calls,

Some heavy rain is dropping as autumn falls,

Sometimes, i wished myself was a doll,

Free from emotions and thoughts like an empty hall.

Life of a person is full of curve,

Writing this poem is getting on my nerve,

Cause it's so hard to find a sentence which matches with loves,   

And lastly,

Gor, i will always remember you with full of loves.
(This last stanza sucks btw)

P/S: One thing i dont like about you is that you're evil. Threatening me on every single thing that i refused to tell you or do. even though i like it *masochist*

PP/S: I would like to see you cry in front of me so that i can cry with you for one last time. I love seeing people cry so that i can be the man to comfort the other. (Yes i am weird)

Prophecy

I've had trouble handling my gift...or rather, i do not know how to control my gift. As far as i can remember, it had all started at the age of 8 with me catching a glimpse of the afterlife of my cousin's uncle. Like people and everything around us, my gift develops. From being able to see the afterlife-s to feeling what they're feeling to mental communication and deja vu at a very high rate of occurrence. Then, seeing solid forms of them instead of spiritual form and then as i grow, i discovered more of my abilities. I thought that it would stop at the I-can-see-ghost point but no.

Now, from deja vu to premonitions. I know that i will be in a bad accident in the future but when will be a very good question. Where? Right at the junction of Union High School. Ever watched Final Destination? The movie starts with one of the actor getting a premonition and stuff like that right? Well, i get that too and the worse of all, i feel the fear and the pain and i just woke up. Like how it happened to the actor, the scene goes on for like, 5 minutes or so but in reality, it only happened in a split second or a few. Yes, some of you might think that "Oh! You just watch too much movie" but sadly, no. Producers and most of the time, people who performs art in any form, musicians, novelist, artists and whatever else you can think of, has a special ability which they do not know of themselves. They get ideas from the beings on top (no, im not talking about gods) and i will not explain what those beings are.

And then, from premonitions to now, prophecies. What i prophesied is very simple and very frustrating.

Premonitions, Chris, Volcano, Earthquake, Universe

What are these? Do not ask me cause i dont know myself. I've gone through the first phase; Premonitions. I 'dreamed' about the future or rather my consciousness floats somewhere between the Earth realm and the realm beyond. I received messages from the beings above. What are those? Weird stuff i might say. First thing I saw was an arrow of sort. It's hard to be described and basically, it's not a normal arrow. Secondly, i saw a vial. Ever played starcraft? One of the stages of Protoss's. You need to rescue one of your ally from a vial thingie...I saw something like that. I too saw a spaceship of some sort. Not the normal UFO kind of thing but more or less, it is so.

Back then, the nights before i received these, i was unable to sleep well. No matter what time i slept, i will wake up at 4AM SHARP. I tried sleeping at 2AM even and still, i woke up at 4AM SHARP! I feel totally refreshed and not tired for the whole day. I got really frustrated cause i know this is not normal. You might argue that it's my biological clock is doing the trick and stuff but hell no i tell you. Believe or not, it's up to you.

Okay, enough about premonitions. Now, i am currently ongoing phase two; Chris. What's with Chris? I have no idea but i do now. I do not know why does premonitions links to Chris till now but at least i know what is going to happen. More or less. She is not herself and will not be for a period of time. Lately, my worst fear was confirmed. Thankfully, to confirm my truth, i'd told mother everything before it happened. Now even if nobody in the world believes me, mother WILL believe. Today, there had been an argument about her with the whole family. It had gone for days now and my family too feels that there's something wrong with her. Oh damn! What are all these riddles about? What crap am i writing!?

Whatever it is, since this is my blog, i will write whatever i knows about. That's all i can say. I had been furious with her a couple of times and thankfully, i was reminded that this is all according to the prophecy. What i do know is that IF, mother and father pushes her and argues with her, she will somehow leave. Leave the house? Leave for the afterlife? I do not know! I advised mother not to scold or yell at her and just let her be for the moment. Thankfully, mother heed my advice. I had given her the task to explain it to father and i hope that he believes in what was said.

Depression is going into me again just like what had happened when the first phase started. No matter what happens, will try my best to persevere! I do not believe in destiny but i believe that i had such abilities for a reason. I never wanted to get rid of my abilities but from time to time, i will hate or dislike them. If my duty is to observe and record, then so be it!

I just hope that i can do something about it...sighh...

FUCK!

DAMN! I seriously want to get out of my house right this instant! What the hell is wrong with everybody? Why do they want to intrude my privacy? I came to facebook for fun and do my own thing and live my own life but now...they're treating as if facebook is a place where they can poke into everybody's business! WHAT THE HELL!!!??? In real life, there's this thing called privacy line! IT TOO EXISTS ON VIRTUAL WORLD!!! HEEYYY!!! AMATEURS!!! PLEASE DO KNOW THAT PRIVACY LINE TOO EXISTS ON FACEBOOK AND ALL THE VIRTUAL WORLD!!!

Urge

All of sudden, I've the feel to blog...but don't know what should i blog about haha!!! So many things i can talk about actually but dont really feel like it haha!! Exam's on monday and tonight, im gonna prepare my own notes after doing downstairs for postponed pot luck gathering with neighbors. Then, one round of dota and HELLO BORING see asshole CSO.